Yes, I look like a clown and the most ironic thing is that I want to be one, and at the same time I understand that I should devote more time to meditation. I already have success, I stopped doing push-ups and instead of this, I began to train elements and, fortunately, not on the horizontal bar, but in the shower. In fact, 1000 mantras is not that difficult, but it takes about 2 hours. I think that the simplest of self-development is ordinary physical exercises in a fitness club or rehabilitation center. The hardest thing I did was training and having sex with my hand with my eyes closed. Many people here on the forum are not even able to do a set of workouts on the playground for 10 minutes a day, and at the same time these people hate people like me for talking about their program of "regular training". Such people are called losers, they always use hatred for successful people to drown out their pain.