Alright thanks that is helpful. As I suspected...less thinking more doing! But the doing isn't about left-brain, it is quieting down and going right brain. I have done this in the past, just need to relax and do it more. Hail Satan :-)

So I have read all of the JoS website, and all the links it goes to which have more info etc. I had already read Stitchen's books and was aware of the reptilians, greys, etc., all of those ideas. I've read about the Holy Grail from other sources, over-coming self-victimization, the stuff from...

"It isn't clear whether or not he's a troll. For now he's just a brother in need help." Soul in need of help. That was my second manic depression phase for the second month in a row...seems to line up with the new moon. I swear I am being attacked spiritually or something because after I...

I have always been able to do this thing inside my head that can make my body tingle. Is this the energy? It is like there is a muscle inside my head, right in the middle, and if I flex it and think about it I can tingle any specific part of my body. Is this the energy we're supposed to be...

Yes, it did feel right. I felt sure, I felt confident, I felt happy. I did feel a little anxious because of the years of xian filth I was rejecting, but, that I did it with rejecting my fear, I felt that it showed my intent and my dedication, because I was fully aware of what I was doing...

How strict do you need to follow the meditation guidelines, and the imagery? For example, Technique #1 for beginners says: 1.Inhale slowly through your nose and visualize and focus upon energy being drawn into your base chakra and with the inhale, draw this energy up through all of your...

Thanks for that fire starter. Honestly I am very surprised that people have been as pleasant as you have been, in response to my abjectly ridiculous degree of displayed nihilism and narcissism. Part of asking about destroying your own soul is because of the academic question of it: what...

So from reading the JoS and related sites, the tie-in of all the so-called conspiracy theories out there is that the Jews have reptilian DNA which makes them so much smarter than us, they're a bunch of evil bastards and the true enemy of humanity. Why are they here? Who sent them? Who are...

What happens if you WANT your soul to fade away because you are sick and tired of reincarnating and experiencing the inevitable violence, abuse, stupidity, or, the likewise just as vapid and meaningless, joy, love, sex, wealth, etc? The only thing that seems to be real is fear. Anyone not...

What happens if you WANT your soul to fade away because you are sick and tired of reincarnating and experiencing the inevitable violence, abuse, stupidity, or, the likewise just as vapid and meaningless, joy, love, sex, wealth, etc? There is nothing in this illusion that's actually all that...

I have read that having a xian pray for you can cause confusion, lack of will, etc, in a normal person. I know that my xian brother prays for me like crazy and I don't know why sometimes I just feel like I can't focus or get anything done, for months at a time. Is that from him praying for...

Yes, I probably do have a lot of self pity. I have no friends I don't know what I will do for work in the future and I feel like life is incredibly empty and vapid. I have an IQ of about 140 but being smart has just made me feel and be entirely separate from everyone around me and I feel no...

Do "adepts" actually physically experience them? Do you actually get to see them physically and converse with them? After dedicating and re-dedicating, I still feel so empty inside. Or is it all just in your head? Is there any actual demonstration of someone using telekinesis, for example?

Why are there so many warnings against re-doing the ritual? As you know, my dedication ritual didn't go very well the first time. So I re-did it yesterday with much more heart in it and intent and had no problem getting blood to sign my name. Before the ritual I asked Satan that if there...

The needle must have been extremely dull and too week because it was literally bending in half while I was trying to puncture my skin. I have an extremely sharp knife somewhere I just need to find, and I can hone it a little more on my spiderco set. I felt foolish and silly yesterday after...

Today I planned on doing the ritual. I got home from work and showered, then wrote out the dedication and lit the black and red candles. When it came time to pin my hand to get blood, it hurt so much I couldn't do it for while. I focused intently on puncturing my skin, but the needle...