You're my friends, aren't you?

[Bmwm3gtr]

You're my friends, aren't you?

I'm giving up now.
Please let this article go up.
I really want ******** and morphine.
Anxiety disorder, no treatment for schizophrenia...
Suicide thoughts and gloomy and sad songs are the joy of life.
Meditation isn't working...
I'm sick and tired of smoking and drinking even if I eat something delicious.

 

[Bmwm3gtr]

It's not joke

 

[Impetigo]

It's not worth it, dude. Talk to Satan.

 

[HadesWithin666]

You are not thinking straight and you surely don't understand how life works , I am not saying this in a judgmental way or as if not carrying , quite the opposite actually. I understand what you're going trough ,I have myself been trough that place as well.

But you have to understand that the more shit you put in your own body the more poisonous mind becomes, you've said that you're meditating but one has to respect his body as well , one can't simply do a 40 days wunjo working for healing but daily making harm to his body and then have a surprised and shocked face and be like 'Oh...the meditations are not work' how could they if you don't allow them to work??

The fact they let your post go trough shows that we are indeed your friend and brother/sisters within Father Satan Himself, we do not care only about each other as a family but also for the entire population as a whole.

I am telling you , I know how those things works, If you decide to take your life then you would eliminate the pain just for a few minutes, you would still suffer in the astral and mostly in your next life and it's gonna be thousands times worse, we take all of this problems and sufferings with ourselves when we die and we get them again in our next lives , so taking your life would not help at all , quite the opposite is gonna be worse.

And this thing with 'I have schizophrenia' this is childish to say so , I doubt the society and system would had let you out the streets if you would truly have had it , this is just crying for attention.

Even if you ask Father Satan for a miracle help and heal , what would be the point of being perfect for one day if you will still go into your bad habits which lead to this very moment, you have to break the cycle , meaning .. stop drinking like a tard , ok? Go take a shower, have some big breaths , stay in bad, do void meditation for 15 minute but do it well then think and reflect upon your life , then do the void again and ask yourself 'What is that which makes me suffer? Is it the fact that I am alone? Is it the fact that I am not as beautiful as I would always wanted to be?'

Asking for help is not giving up , it's refusing to give up.
Here , watch this:

 

[GoldenxChild1]

You will not be consoled even if any one SS said yes.

I sincerely hope you do not do anything regrettable.

Please be patient with yourself regarding meditation. Meditation opens the soul up gradually and there are specific workings one must do as they decide their individuals needs. For instance, you may benefit from using the rune WUNJO, which heals psychological issues.

Don't hesitate to speak to Father Satan—even if you can't hear him, he can hear you and will respond accordingly.

 

[Bmwm3gtr]

You are not thinking straight and you surely don't understand how life works , I am not saying this in a judgmental way or as if not carrying , quite the opposite actually. I understand what you're going trough ,I have myself been trough that place as well.

But you have to understand that the more shit you put in your own body the more poisonous mind becomes, you've said that you're meditating but one has to respect his body as well , one can't simply do a 40 days wunjo working for healing but daily making harm to his body and then have a surprised and shocked face and be like 'Oh...the meditations are not work' how could they if you don't allow them to work??

The fact they let your post go trough shows that we are indeed your friend and brother/sisters within Father Satan Himself, we do not care only about each other as a family but also for the entire population as a whole.

I am telling you , I know how those things works, If you decide to take your life then you would eliminate the pain just for a few minutes, you would still suffer in the astral and mostly in your next life and it's gonna be thousands times worse, we take all of this problems and sufferings with ourselves when we die and we get them again in our next lives , so taking your life would not help at all , quite the opposite is gonna be worse.

And this thing with 'I have schizophrenia' this is childish to say so , I doubt the society and system would had let you out the streets if you would truly have had it , this is just crying for attention.

Even if you ask Father Satan for a miracle help and heal , what would be the point of being perfect for one day if you will still go into your bad habits which lead to this very moment, you have to break the cycle , meaning .. stop drinking like a tard , ok? Go take a shower, have some big breaths , stay in bad, do void meditation for 15 minute but do it well then think and reflect upon your life , then do the void again and ask yourself 'What is that which makes me suffer? Is it the fact that I am alone? Is it the fact that I am not as beautiful as I would always wanted to be?'

Asking for help is not giving up , it's refusing to give up.
Here , watch this:

Thank you I love you

 

[Symmachos-ZEUS/SHAITAN]

I'm sick and tired of smoking and drinking even if I eat something delicious

Why don't you allow yourself to improve in small steps and step by step get more and more obvious results. You stand there blaming yourself, but you should take small steps toward the solution. And the solution exists IF undertaken realistically slowly. You mentioned smoking, name me one person in the world who quit smoking overnight, it's not possible, in fact, suddenly interrupting things like that has physical repercussions as well and of certain will still bring you back. But the way to take it slow is there:

Actual Self Love: Drugs & Addictions - Fixing One's Self

When one does negative things to one's self, you are not truly "loving yourself". Over the last days I have been doing a lot of further research on addictions, drugs and related problems, since I want to be able to solve these problems for others. At the case where people do this, we can see...

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Another great information:

How To Control Addictions, Passions, Animal Drives

Spiritual Satanism stands against every and all enemy dogma. The dogma of the enemy does not provide wisdom, it has no knowledge on how to control anything of a human nature, is anti-human and therefore wants to destroy humanity. Condemning human nature and dismissing it as "Evil", was the key...

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I use this method for food addiction (and it is working very well):

Black is great for Void meditation. You don't even have to invoke it, just visualize it all around you like nothing else exists, you're in a black void, and do void meditation. This is very calming for the mind.

Since I need it not only to meditate on the void, but since I want the shining black energy I put around my soul to give me self-control by blocking my addiction, I add an affirmation to this. I swear it works beautifully. After a while, despite the meditation in question, the addiction returns, but the self-control remains longer, at least until the stimulus passes on its own. And you can do it for several times during the day anyway, whenever you feel it necessary.

Meditation isn't working

Read here, please:

The Way Forward In Spiritual Satanism: Taking Action

Overall in all my years around the JoS, I have seen many people who use meditations as a form of escapism or in a delusional manner. These people then develop a sense of "inflation" in themselves; thinking they are great, pharaohs and whatever, just because they sit there and meditate and the...

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Suicide thoughts and gloomy and sad songs are the joy of life.

It is a vicious circle. You are sad because you focus on sadness, and this sadness makes you even sadder so you still focus on sadness which makes you even sadder, until the circle is infinitely reinforced. Break the circle from here: stop with this focus. Direct the focus to a different thing. I began to sincerely want to heal from food addiction when I told myself that it could be fun and stimulating to take care of my body. For example, a mother taking care of her garden. Taking care of oneself is like gardening, but in the highest levels. And just as the mother struggles in growing plants, etc., I also struggle in exercising, staying on a normal diet, etc. But it is good because I am gardening my body. It is fun. Much more than food addiction...

I really want Glock 9mm and morphine

To do what with it? To go down even lower to the point where you then really can't go back up?

 

[HadesWithin666]

https://satanisgod.org/Virtue_TheFall.html

"Every fall is there to be reversed, and as man fell, so might he return."

Also read the last bit of that virtue " and others will know neither." - imagine that at least we being lucky enough to even exist, why to take it all away? Some have not even been ever created and will never be , think very well on this , life has been given to improve ourselves and live it , in all of its pleasure and beauty , life would be boring without suffering if all will be on easy mode. You should be more gratitude for existing , don't do yourself more herm , you got to be your best friend and ally.

 

[Bmwm3gtr]

I'm sorry to see you look terrible, my friend
Maybe it's because I'm still young.
I should quit smoking and live a productive life.
I was walking down the river because I was depressed and Astarte encouraged me that "you are only a 21-year-old boy."
I remember Asmodus tickling my feet before
i went to bed.
He look like an older brother to me.
I'm not lying, I was in the early stages of the Astral encounter.
Enlil was very playful.
Is it the same for you?

 

[Way_Seeker666]

You writing this post means you want to live. You're struggling to find a clear reason to live, but you WANT to live and you WANT to be free from your pain and sadness. You don't truly want to kill yourself. You know this. Now decide this. Let go of the thoughts of suicide and giving up. You're a Satanic Soul. These thoughts are just a pointless loop that make you feel bad because they fight your heart and soul which want to live no matter what, and have the strength Satan gives.

Admit to yourself, aside from the pain, that you want to live. Even if it hurts at this moment you want to live and you want life to be better. This is your truth and this is how you start getting better. If you don't know your next steps, the Gods do, and when you ask them honestly they will answer. Lord Valefor is very kind and can heal anything, do his ritual and ask his help.

You can find your way with Them.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

You're my friends, aren't you?

I'm giving up now.
Please let this article go up.
I really want ******** and morphine.
Anxiety disorder, no treatment for schizophrenia...
Suicide thoughts and gloomy and sad songs are the joy of life.
Meditation isn't working...
I'm sick and tired of smoking and drinking even if I eat something delicious.

You seem trapped in high negativity.
If you are unable for some reasons to pull you out of a destructive circle, you may need to catch some external forces pulling you.
Like you are a wagon on a dead rail, just attach yourself to a running train. Later on you will be able to be your own train yourself.
The Gods cannot come here take your hand and pull you out of bad habits, thay can show you the way.

You know what I would do in your situation ?
I would look for a job that gives me accomodation, food, and a routine to follow. Like in hotels, cruise ships, retirement houses, etc. In this way you will be forced to be sane to attend your job and you will find value in your job to help others live their life/holiday/retirement.
I used a similar way to pull me out of potentially trapping environments. And it worked well for a while, it was just temporary. This is why I often give this advice to people who seem desperate like you seem.
If you catch a train, this will bring you somewhere new with its pulling force. And new places may greatly help to abandon old patterns, habits and feelings, so you may feel motivated and rejuvenated.

If you stay idle, complaining on the forums, you won't advance.