Quel_tizio
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Time ago I found out that the router keeps in his history all the websites that have been visited while being connected to that router: I felt kinda anxiuos at first, because I was afraid that my parents could find out that I'm "back in Satanism"(they found out that time ago because I was chatting with a satanist online[but now anymore], but now they aren't anymore suspicius of me), so I tried to erase the router history, but when I logged in the router's site, I found out that from there no one could see the sites you have visited.
Now I discovered(not from them, but from a tiktok's comment, so im not sure about that) that they could theorically ask the wifi company a list of all the sites, and if it is like that I'm pretty much fucked(same thing for 4g, I think they can see the sites I visited).
I believe if I hadnt meditate i would have gone crazy: this situations is very critical and stressful, but thanks meditations my anxiety reduced.
From my router's sites I can't cancel the history.
I think that every months the history of the router(and 4g) reset.
When they found out I ""was"" satanist, they went crazy, and my sister told me that my mom cried the night, in fact in Italy there were a couple of famous cases of ""satanism""(you know: killing, doing drugs ecc.), I even tried to explain them that the real satanism isn't like that, but they wouldnt listen.
They would check my phone the night and violate my privacy, or enter in the room completly random and if my room was dark they would be mad(most of this was from my mom, since I dont live with my dad).
I even stopped meditating and i was really depressed, if I wouldnt have restarted to meditate, i think I would have a trauma, cause every time my mom entered home I started panicking.
After some months of sadness, I started meditating without my mom knowing, but One time she entered in the room and I was forced to tell her that I closed with satanism but meditations made me feel happy, so I wanted to continue and she was ok with that, since she allo Believe in some new age's bs.
So, you can understand that I dont want that to happen again.
I got rid of every proof: I check my phone weekly, i dont have any book ecc., any file in the phone, I just have this problem that really stress me.
I even meditate when there's no one home, so I can say in the future that I'm done with meditations and get rid of everything related to Satanism.
I just want to follow what i believe in, without being afraid or feeling in some sort of cage unable to breath.
What I really hate it's that my mom knew that when she entrered in the room saying like "give me your phone" or "what are u doing", I was anxious and now sometimes to prank on me she says the same things.
Luckly, in two years my sister is going to a university far from my city and my mom is always busy with work so I would have more freedom, until I am able to move out from my home.
So what can I do about this?
I hope Satan can help me with this someway.
Now I discovered(not from them, but from a tiktok's comment, so im not sure about that) that they could theorically ask the wifi company a list of all the sites, and if it is like that I'm pretty much fucked(same thing for 4g, I think they can see the sites I visited).
I believe if I hadnt meditate i would have gone crazy: this situations is very critical and stressful, but thanks meditations my anxiety reduced.
From my router's sites I can't cancel the history.
I think that every months the history of the router(and 4g) reset.
When they found out I ""was"" satanist, they went crazy, and my sister told me that my mom cried the night, in fact in Italy there were a couple of famous cases of ""satanism""(you know: killing, doing drugs ecc.), I even tried to explain them that the real satanism isn't like that, but they wouldnt listen.
They would check my phone the night and violate my privacy, or enter in the room completly random and if my room was dark they would be mad(most of this was from my mom, since I dont live with my dad).
I even stopped meditating and i was really depressed, if I wouldnt have restarted to meditate, i think I would have a trauma, cause every time my mom entered home I started panicking.
After some months of sadness, I started meditating without my mom knowing, but One time she entered in the room and I was forced to tell her that I closed with satanism but meditations made me feel happy, so I wanted to continue and she was ok with that, since she allo Believe in some new age's bs.
So, you can understand that I dont want that to happen again.
I got rid of every proof: I check my phone weekly, i dont have any book ecc., any file in the phone, I just have this problem that really stress me.
I even meditate when there's no one home, so I can say in the future that I'm done with meditations and get rid of everything related to Satanism.
I just want to follow what i believe in, without being afraid or feeling in some sort of cage unable to breath.
What I really hate it's that my mom knew that when she entrered in the room saying like "give me your phone" or "what are u doing", I was anxious and now sometimes to prank on me she says the same things.
Luckly, in two years my sister is going to a university far from my city and my mom is always busy with work so I would have more freedom, until I am able to move out from my home.
So what can I do about this?
I hope Satan can help me with this someway.