Why is everything so extreme in my soul?

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I was realizing lately that everything I am is taken to an extreme. I explain myself better with examples:

1) My compassion: usually when someone tries to help others they do so, and rightly so in the best ways. But this thing is really very extreme in me that I would be willing to stand for hours to help someone if I see they have a problem and put my own needs aside to try to better understand their situation and handle it to the best of my ability. I misspoke, but you get the idea. No hesitation or half-measures.

2) My love for the Gods. All I need is for someone to tell me even something """"normal"""" like, "Anubis said this sentence," that I start writing twenty messages in capital letters like "I LOVE HIM" "I REALLY LOVE HIM" "HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM," etc. This is not an exaggeration, it has happened to me several times.

3) When I think about something, I don't treat it superficially. I have to figure out how to handle a problem? I try to cover every single aspect of the problem and that is why sometimes my replies are very very long (even too long), and even when I tell one of the most trivial personal anecdotes, the message comes out really very long.

4) Working for Satan? I can never get enough of that either. I always try to do as many things as I can. Do I have two free minutes with which I could do something useful for Father Satan? I just do it. If I can do it and I don't think about if.

5) Donate to JoS? HP. HoodedCobra666 who controls the donations knows the amount of them. By itself, generally speaking it is little, but for my income it is literally 15%.

6) The meditations? They last for hours. I put up with it because I didn't start meditating for hours overnight, but I got there gradually, and it's not two hours of working on the chakras, but workings on various aspects of the soul (nadi, aura, chakra, pineal, etc.) so I don't get burned out, but I empower all aspects of my soul anyway. No half measures here either.

7) Study? I have a thousand manuals of specific skills and knowledge. I study them all the time.

8) Training? I train intensively every day, and I am the only one in my academy who takes martial arts so seriously

Extra: The fact is that certain things about me are also extreme. For example, my fighting skills, my IQ scores, etc.

I have been noticing these things for a lifetime, and sometimes I wonder why one or two of these points listed above. But I think it is time to ask the overall why of these things....

I want to get to know myself better. Actually no, I already know myself very well by now. But I also want to understand why I am the way I am and not just the way I am. I want the deep reason.

 

[Eos_]

Why are you this way? Because you are a seeker of the infinite, a soul that senses the vastness beyond the veil of the mundane. Your fire is not excess; it is the rejection of half-measures in a world too often content with complacency. Souls like ours seek depth, and oftentimes have a thirst we know cannot ever be fully quenched. Sometimes we are too much for average people (those around us daily) to comprehend... and it makes us question ourselves - just as you are in this post. Know that you are not alone. I struggle everyday with similar thoughts to those that you are expressing. We are in this together friend.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

Because when one is a soul of divine origin, this is how they will be. We all have that origin and the closer to the Gods the more that activates within, and as one takes the trajectory to growth, all these actions make sense as they grow the spirit of mankind alongside one's own spirit.

You are doing wonderfully and must stay on these high level vibrations you are, don't let anything pull you down. Keep going upward.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

Because when one is a soul of divine origin, this is how they will be. We all have that origin and the closer to the Gods the more that activates within, and as one takes the trajectory to growth, all these actions make sense as they grow the spirit of mankind alongside one's own spirit.

You are doing wonderfully and must stay on these high level vibrations you are, don't let anything pull you down. Keep going upward.

Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. Since I know you are busy I can only say how much I appreciate it. Thank you very much indeed! And yes, sometimes it is complex not to get down on yourself when you lose some things in life that were, however, necessary steps to push you to mature. However, I have seen that when you get to a certain point, quitting and going back no longer feels like something "sensible," but it becomes sensible just the opposite: that is, not to give up and keep going. Thank you again High Priest, truly I appreciated your message!

 

[Hellenic SS]

I have been noticing these things for a lifetime, and sometimes I wonder why one or two of these points listed above. But I think it is time to ask the overall why of these things....

I want to get to know myself better. Actually no, I already know myself very well by now. But I also want to understand why I am the way I am and not just the way I am. I want the deep reason.

Everything you mentioned is a sign of Daemonic potential.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

I was realizing lately that everything I am is taken to an extreme. I explain myself better with examples:

1) My compassion: usually when someone tries to help others they do so, and rightly so in the best ways. But this thing is really very extreme in me that I would be willing to stand for hours to help someone if I see they have a problem and put my own needs aside to try to better understand their situation and handle it to the best of my ability. I misspoke, but you get the idea. No hesitation or half-measures.

2) My love for the Gods. All I need is for someone to tell me even something """"normal"""" like, "Anubis said this sentence," that I start writing twenty messages in capital letters like "I LOVE HIM" "I REALLY LOVE HIM" "HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM," etc. This is not an exaggeration, it has happened to me several times.

3) When I think about something, I don't treat it superficially. I have to figure out how to handle a problem? I try to cover every single aspect of the problem and that is why sometimes my replies are very very long (even too long), and even when I tell one of the most trivial personal anecdotes, the message comes out really very long.

4) Working for Satan? I can never get enough of that either. I always try to do as many things as I can. Do I have two free minutes with which I could do something useful for Father Satan? I just do it. If I can do it and I don't think about if.

5) Donate to JoS? HP. HoodedCobra666 who controls the donations knows the amount of them. By itself, generally speaking it is little, but for my income it is literally 15%.

6) The meditations? They last for hours. I put up with it because I didn't start meditating for hours overnight, but I got there gradually, and it's not two hours of working on the chakras, but workings on various aspects of the soul (nadi, aura, chakra, pineal, etc.) so I don't get burned out, but I empower all aspects of my soul anyway. No half measures here either.

7) Study? I have a thousand manuals of specific skills and knowledge. I study them all the time.

8) Training? I train intensively every day, and I am the only one in my academy who takes martial arts so seriously

Extra: The fact is that certain things about me are also extreme. For example, my fighting skills, my IQ scores, etc.

I have been noticing these things for a lifetime, and sometimes I wonder why one or two of these points listed above. But I think it is time to ask the overall why of these things....

I want to get to know myself better. Actually no, I already know myself very well by now. But I also want to understand why I am the way I am and not just the way I am. I want the deep reason.

Bro’s flexing and thinks he has problems

Jokes aside, most of these are positive and are in positive ways of life, they make you special. If you had the same passions for friends, partying, drugs, etc. I am sure you would be a destroyed person, but the things you care about build you.

One thing I’ll tell you though, which I’ve noticed in you and it feels extreme and unnatural is your people pleasing tendencies. I think all your problems you mentioned stems from this or other types of anxiety. It makes you a sweet, compassionate and empathic community helper, but don’t forget yourself too or be afraid to stand your ground.

 

[FancyMancy]

Just make sure that you don't go into a topic 'to the extremes, like I do with christianity, because you'll be called "obsessed" with it. Temper yourself, if you need to.

 

[Ælberiigor]

I was realizing lately that everything I am is taken to an extreme. I explain myself better with examples:

You are simply not corrupted. Just stay like this.

Just know you will attract jealousy for your purity, just ignore low level people (at least 90% of the population, in any region or social category).

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I was realizing lately that everything I am is taken to an extreme. I explain myself better with examples:

I will be straight, hope you don't get offended but I experienced on myself the same as you in my whole life.
You seem pushed by "not being enough" recurrent pattern.
I have seen this frequently in people, mainly in very highly xian countries and education, or in traumatized people. And in myself as I said. It'a loop pushing you to the extreme to be "enough" or "reach expectations of being perfect". It is evident also in you changing your avatar almost daily (nice avatar by the way!). It is never perfect, am I right?.
It's difficult to overcome this internal anxiety that indeed comes from an inner dialogue, constantly repeating yourself to do more and questioning if what you did is enough and if you will be accepted or rejected, etc.

In my life, this brought to high success and bold accomplishments, so it's not entirely negative. But it worn me out on the long run, and was not the correct approach, but the only approach I was able to have for my internal issues. I needed decades to understand and fix it, and this is still latent in my mind.
And I see you are overactive on the forums, in the same way. But indeed, it seems also a great job to helo people that you are doing.

If you manage to find this inner dialogue that is constantly putting you in a "not enough" emotional state, half of the job is done.
Astrologically this is Plutonian, anyway.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

You are doing wonderfully and must stay on these high level vibrations you are, don't let anything pull you down. Keep going upward.

With my reply I did not want to state the opposite, I just overlooked this reply from HP HC and focused on what I perceive is the mechanism here.
Indeed, it is tangible the push given to the forums by SeguaceDiSaranas, I can feel it.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

Thinking to this thread, lead me to wonder whether I wrongly interpreted your inner push as I am too concerned with issues that are with me since a lifetime or more.
Anyway, just my own way to see things, happy to be wrong in case I am.

 

[monomotapa]

I was realizing lately that everything I am is taken to an extreme. I explain myself better with examples:

1) My compassion: usually when someone tries to help others they do so, and rightly so in the best ways. But this thing is really very extreme in me that I would be willing to stand for hours to help someone if I see they have a problem and put my own needs aside to try to better understand their situation and handle it to the best of my ability. I misspoke, but you get the idea. No hesitation or half-measures.

2) My love for the Gods. All I need is for someone to tell me even something """"normal"""" like, "Anubis said this sentence," that I start writing twenty messages in capital letters like "I LOVE HIM" "I REALLY LOVE HIM" "HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM," etc. This is not an exaggeration, it has happened to me several times.

3) When I think about something, I don't treat it superficially. I have to figure out how to handle a problem? I try to cover every single aspect of the problem and that is why sometimes my replies are very very long (even too long), and even when I tell one of the most trivial personal anecdotes, the message comes out really very long.

4) Working for Satan? I can never get enough of that either. I always try to do as many things as I can. Do I have two free minutes with which I could do something useful for Father Satan? I just do it. If I can do it and I don't think about if.

5) Donate to JoS? HP. HoodedCobra666 who controls the donations knows the amount of them. By itself, generally speaking it is little, but for my income it is literally 15%.

6) The meditations? They last for hours. I put up with it because I didn't start meditating for hours overnight, but I got there gradually, and it's not two hours of working on the chakras, but workings on various aspects of the soul (nadi, aura, chakra, pineal, etc.) so I don't get burned out, but I empower all aspects of my soul anyway. No half measures here either.

7) Study? I have a thousand manuals of specific skills and knowledge. I study them all the time.

8) Training? I train intensively every day, and I am the only one in my academy who takes martial arts so seriously

Extra: The fact is that certain things about me are also extreme. For example, my fighting skills, my IQ scores, etc.

I have been noticing these things for a lifetime, and sometimes I wonder why one or two of these points listed above. But I think it is time to ask the overall why of these things....

I want to get to know myself better. Actually no, I already know myself very well by now. But I also want to understand why I am the way I am and not just the way I am. I want the deep reason.I I

I was once like this from my teens unfortunately it fucked me up and I had anxiety attack's manifestation on my body wasnt pleasant but I kinda grew up from it.be careful coz you can be harmed by this if moderation is not practiced.you can be even used by those without, i hv been used but thankfully not severe but still painful just tone down and be careful

I was realizing lately that everything I am is taken to an extreme. I explain myself better with examples:

1) My compassion: usually when someone tries to help others they do so, and rightly so in the best ways. But this thing is really very extreme in me that I would be willing to stand for hours to help someone if I see they have a problem and put my own needs aside to try to better understand their situation and handle it to the best of my ability. I misspoke, but you get the idea. No hesitation or half-measures.

2) My love for the Gods. All I need is for someone to tell me even something """"normal"""" like, "Anubis said this sentence," that I start writing twenty messages in capital letters like "I LOVE HIM" "I REALLY LOVE HIM" "HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM," etc. This is not an exaggeration, it has happened to me several times.

3) When I think about something, I don't treat it superficially. I have to figure out how to handle a problem? I try to cover every single aspect of the problem and that is why sometimes my replies are very very long (even too long), and even when I tell one of the most trivial personal anecdotes, the message comes out really very long.

4) Working for Satan? I can never get enough of that either. I always try to do as many things as I can. Do I have two free minutes with which I could do something useful for Father Satan? I just do it. If I can do it and I don't think about if.

5) Donate to JoS? HP. HoodedCobra666 who controls the donations knows the amount of them. By itself, generally speaking it is little, but for my income it is literally 15%.

6) The meditations? They last for hours. I put up with it because I didn't start meditating for hours overnight, but I got there gradually, and it's not two hours of working on the chakras, but workings on various aspects of the soul (nadi, aura, chakra, pineal, etc.) so I don't get burned out, but I empower all aspects of my soul anyway. No half measures here either.

7) Study? I have a thousand manuals of specific skills and knowledge. I study them all the time.

8) Training? I train intensively every day, and I am the only one in my academy who takes martial arts so seriously

Extra: The fact is that certain things about me are also extreme. For example, my fighting skills, my IQ scores, etc.

I have been noticing these things for a lifetime, and sometimes I wonder why one or two of these points listed above. But I think it is time to ask the overall why of these things....

I want to get to know myself better. Actually no, I already know myself very well by now. But I also want to understand why I am the way I am and not just the way I am. I want the deep reason.