When I was a kid I was going to join JoS and dedicate but my parents almost brainwashed me

[Demonic Tech]

Hello fellow Satanist, I'm very happy to be here, writing my first topic in this beautiful forum that goes from Satanic questions to more "generic" questions, such as the "Love" topic I found in this Teens4Satan section.

I'm writing this because I'm a bit worried about my worth.

When I was very young, 12-13 years old, I got into supernatural. That led me to JoyOfSatan website.
I was enthusiast. I enjoyed the discover of this site so much, that in a few days I did a sort of ritual, which I can't remember what it is. It was not yet the dedication, it was something like a liberation from xtainity, where at the end you feel like a weight leaving your legs/feet (?). Now I am almost 20yo, so it is very difficut to remember all these details.
So my first question is: can someone please tell me the name of that "ritual" and maybe the link to that? But I'm pretty sure that I visited itajos.com, the italian version. Maybe there are differences.


Anyway, my faith in Satan/Enki (if a 13 years old kid can have real faith, I honestly don't know) continued as I tried to meditate and followed the main instructions to be a good satanist. I didn't dedicate tho, because I couldn't and I didn't know about astral dedication.

But then, something very bad happened. I wrote into a paper a prayer to Enki, and my mom found it. My mom, who is a xtain, got mad, she was scared, she thought JoS was just like acid satanism. In a certain sense, i understand her. A famous local group of acidists killed a person she knew.

Anyway, she brainwashed me with her own fear. I was only 13. I couldn't psycologically defend myself, and I fell.
I never became a xtain after that, but i became anxious. You know that the enemy is very strong and able when it comes to terrify people. I was scared of the xtain hell, the horrible one. Definitely I rejected satanism at the time.

Luckily, some time later I continued to visit JoS website (i like to think that in way or another, Satan will always be a part of my life), but then I grew up, I entered puberty, and I became a normie guy, so I lost my interest, also because my mind associated JoS with the pain when my mother was looking scared at me.

The time passed, but I started remembering of Satanism as something with good vibes.
And now I feel that I am finally ready to live Spiritual Satanism. As I said, I'm almost 20 now.
So my second question is: do I have a second chance? I hope so... When I think about Satan, I fell an unique emotion. Nothing makes me feel like that, it's gorgeous. It's like joy, joy of satan. I wish to dedicate so much, and I hope you guys can tell if I'm stell worth or not.


I think that Satan would understand and forgive the weak younger me, but I want to be sure.
I'd never bother him.
If you guys think I'm still worthy, then I have a lot of questions more, about the evil jews and hitler especially

Thanks for reading - and for responding, if you're going to do it.

 

[Aquarius]

Hello, you obviously can join us, read joyofsatan.com

 

[luis]

You do not have to worry you do have a "second chance", the Truth is that you never live Satanism in your hearth it's just that your mother made you scared, which is understandble.

Now dedicate, start a meditation routine and do the Final Rtr. If you have any questions on what to do just ask Make sure you read all the articles from the HP's on the Forum and Jos site so you can learn more about all of this. I'm glad to see another fellow italian dedicating, good luck

 

[Sahrot]

1.Read the jos website more carefully and you will find a linkEDICATE YOUR SOUL TO SATAN
2.Of course.

 

[Gearshift]

Your fine. Satan is not a xtian entity that hates you for turning your back or whatever maligned imagination you invented to justify not going to the JoS. You should have just returned to the JoS after everything cooled off. Also we don't really recommend people to use the word Enki nothing wrong but Satan is fine being called Satan. Satan = truth or eternal truth in Sanskirt.

In any case you should just re-read the JoS: http://www.satanisgod.org just understand the website is quite old and not everything is up to date some things sadly are more ignorant but it's okay at least it opens up the mind and lets you understand with sermons written up in more modern times by our high priests.

But I will say after reading and re-reading your story. Your precise fear or scaredness is the reason why we detest these judeo-bolshevik polytheistic anti-religions.

You fell into fear for burning in hell. How can a human being believe in such non-sense. Either way you kinda communistically bolshevised yourself with the fear.

Anyway, she brainwashed me with her own fear. I was only 13. I couldn't psycologically defend myself, and I fell.
I never became a xtain after that, but i became anxious. You know that the enemy is very strong and able when it comes to terrify people. I was scared of the xtain hell, the horrible one. Definitely I rejected satanism at the time

I think the best thing you should have done is told your parents to sit and spin on it. In other words tell them to fuck off and stop nagging at you about communist crap. I know what I say to some Satanist sounds wrong because they associate anti-familial stuff with rabbi yeshou's(jesus's) mad rantings against the family. But some people never learn and need to be told off in their face.

Famous acidist that sounds like pislamic people who toss shit at people for going against allah in their mad communist rantings.

Either way your parents fucked you over real bad, you might have been much more developed physically, mentally, and spiritually following your own path in this religion.

Again I hope you learned your lesson and never tell your parents your Satanist. If you ever do wish do it from a position of power, in terms of understanding National Socialism and Spiritual Satanism. That way they may be curious on it and you can help them out even though it seems like the judeo-bolshevism has them in a death grip as with many foolish xtians. If they seem to far gone then fuck it they are already in the enemy death grip.

FYI those Satanic groups outside the JoS are nothing more than hooligans and ruffians that use religion as a weapon and then blame. They are basically controlled opposition. Since the enemy is scared shitless of real National Socialism and Spiritual Satanism.

Also it's funny your mother shows so much fear and ignorance due to some "acid satanism" whatever that is sounds like some from of lsd to get people on hallucinogenics. But it does show just how a little emotional blackmail manipulates stupid xtians. Instead of using the logic.

Anyways we tell people to use their brains. Kinda like Egon said about a french xtian group that talks about Satan's extraterrestrial incoming. Egon said "So basically they state reject Satan or else he'll teach you common sense and how not to be retarded".

Again try and use the logic and common sense.

Remember Hitler and the National Socialists used their brain unlike people now a days. So try and put logic unto Spiritual Satanism.

And remember most important to perform reverse torah rituals like the F-RTR, that way your soul is being cleansed from enemy garbage. On top of that try and get into a meditation program like the 40-day guide and whatnot that way your moving forward spiritually and on top of that your RTR is stronger since we are performing spiritual warfare. Make sure to build up your auras or protection.

 

[Shael]

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Welcome back.

Yes you can still dedicate and most certainly should. All is okay. Read here: https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/SATANIC.html

If you have questions, ask anytime.

 

[Demonic Tech]

Also we don't really recommend people to use the word Enki nothing wrong but Satan is fine being called Satan. Satan = truth or eternal truth in Sanskirt.

Thanks for this information, I always wondered what would be the better name to call Him.

I will say after reading and re-reading your story. Your precise fear or scaredness is the reason why we detest these judeo-bolshevik polytheistic anti-religions.

You fell into fear for burning in hell. How can a human being believe in such non-sense. Either way you kinda communistically bolshevised yourself with the fear.

Anyway, she brainwashed me with her own fear. I was only 13. I couldn't psycologically defend myself, and I fell.
I never became a xtain after that, but i became anxious. You know that the enemy is very strong and able when it comes to terrify people. I was scared of the xtain hell, the horrible one. Definitely I rejected satanism at the time

I think the best thing you should have done is told your parents to sit and spin on it. In other words tell them to fuck off and stop nagging at you about communist crap. I know what I say to some Satanist sounds wrong because they associate anti-familial stuff with rabbi yeshou's(jesus's) mad rantings against the family. But some people never learn and need to be told off in their face.

I was just a kid and just wasn't brave enough to tell them to fuck off. Anyway I tried to explain them that JoS was just about meditation, life, no sacrifices, but OBVIOUSLY she didn't believed me.

Again I hope you learned your lesson and never tell your parents your Satanist.

I didn't tell anyone. The prayer I wrote just felt from my pocket and I didn't notice, so she found it.

Anyway, thank you all guys who responded to me, I knew it that Father Satan is understanding! I didn't doubt about that, just wanted to be sure, so I would have not bothered him in the contrary case. Hail Satan!