midnitebluuee
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I thought it would be nice to have some advice, and maybe an idea of what I should do... I have really fallen for someone, he is all I think about, all I want, he is the only one I understand and the only person I want to be with. See, when we first started talking everything was PERFECT. Just so amazing. It was obvious we were both so into each other. He stopped talking to other people and focused on me, he would reply to my messages RIGHT away, he was sweet, gave me so many compliments, and just it was so perfect... then about a few weeks later we met...the first time meeting was great, I just had so much anxiety because Im very insecure. And when we first met, thats when I really fell for him.
We hungout several times after that, and each time we hungout we would kiss, hold hands, cuddle, and play xbox together. (yes we both still play xbox) And we even slept together... not sex but just falling asleep together in his bed. And I was the first girl to sleep with him like that and he the same for me.
So to sum the rest up, the past 5 months I feel like he has been leading me on...he would treat me like Im his girlfriend, but Im not. And we hardly talk anymore... he always stops replying to me, he sounds very uninterested now and it is seriously breaking my heart. I can honestly say Ive never felt like this before. Ive been hurt, but not like this. When all I think about is how Im not what he wants anymore. How much I let him in and how hard Ive fell. Especially how we used to talk, when we were actually close, and told each other everything. I try to tell him how I feel, because he still messages me saying hey or goodmorning, and its giving me hope just to get disappointed again. Like mixed signals.
And everyone tells me to forget about him, find better, and to move on, but they dont understand how hard this is for me, and that I dont want to move on... I want to be what he WANTS. I would do anything. Its the only thing I want anymore. Nothing else appeals to me. But the way i feel about him, how hurt I feel, it makes me feel completely depressed. Its ruining me.
what do you do when your in love and dont want to move on?
(also I cant do any actual rituals because I still live with my parents... Im an adult but still quite young and havent got a place of my own yet. Is there something I could do using my mind or certain power meditations I could do to make me what he wants? Please dont tell me that if he doesnt want me then I should forget him. I just want to be what he wants...or should I just try to let go and focus on myself, and hope that time will bring us together again...dont know what Im supposed to do
Help from a brother or sister would make me feel a lot better.
We hungout several times after that, and each time we hungout we would kiss, hold hands, cuddle, and play xbox together. (yes we both still play xbox) And we even slept together... not sex but just falling asleep together in his bed. And I was the first girl to sleep with him like that and he the same for me.
So to sum the rest up, the past 5 months I feel like he has been leading me on...he would treat me like Im his girlfriend, but Im not. And we hardly talk anymore... he always stops replying to me, he sounds very uninterested now and it is seriously breaking my heart. I can honestly say Ive never felt like this before. Ive been hurt, but not like this. When all I think about is how Im not what he wants anymore. How much I let him in and how hard Ive fell. Especially how we used to talk, when we were actually close, and told each other everything. I try to tell him how I feel, because he still messages me saying hey or goodmorning, and its giving me hope just to get disappointed again. Like mixed signals.
And everyone tells me to forget about him, find better, and to move on, but they dont understand how hard this is for me, and that I dont want to move on... I want to be what he WANTS. I would do anything. Its the only thing I want anymore. Nothing else appeals to me. But the way i feel about him, how hurt I feel, it makes me feel completely depressed. Its ruining me.
what do you do when your in love and dont want to move on?
(also I cant do any actual rituals because I still live with my parents... Im an adult but still quite young and havent got a place of my own yet. Is there something I could do using my mind or certain power meditations I could do to make me what he wants? Please dont tell me that if he doesnt want me then I should forget him. I just want to be what he wants...or should I just try to let go and focus on myself, and hope that time will bring us together again...dont know what Im supposed to do
Help from a brother or sister would make me feel a lot better.