What Should I Do? Is This Healthy?

[Baphometii]

Hello everyone,

I have a strong desire to hurt people. During sexual excitement, I talk to Satan and express my wishes to harm or send hexes or harm. Is this healthy? Am I being directed somewhere and does this mean anything? I hunger for all temptations of the flesh, and I hunger for control over people, I desire to manipulate and charm people, coerce them and bewitch them. What is happening to me?
I've basically gotten a strong desire 'to be lethal', but in a way that is concerning to me? I have been watching much about Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy etc and feel like I'm becoming something new entirely. Please don't be concerned by this I'm not a troll, I am being serious.

Kinda confused, like really confused. No offence intended

-Baphomentii

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Hello everyone,

I have a strong desire to hurt people. During sexual excitement, I talk to Satan and express my wishes to harm or send hexes or harm. Is this healthy? Am I being directed somewhere and does this mean anything? I hunger for all temptations of the flesh, and I hunger for control over people, I desire to manipulate and charm people, coerce them and bewitch them. What is happening to me?
I've basically gotten a strong desire 'to be lethal', but in a way that is concerning to me? I have been watching much about Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy etc and feel like I'm becoming something new entirely. Please don't be concerned by this I'm not a troll, I am being serious.

Kinda confused, like really confused. No offence intended

-Baphomentii

Yes, this is not healthy. Look at how our planetary energies operate to get an example of "normal".

For example, the home sign of Venus is in Libra, which suggests the default basis for love is one where you have a very romantic balance between partners, where each gives to another mutually.

What you describe sounds like a negative Plutonian influence. This can be transmuted into something positive, where you become a strongly positive transformative force on people's lives. Maybe you charm them into leading a better lifestyle, rather than coercing them into something destructive.

Another example of this is with Mars and Aries, where one needs to learn to wield this energies for constructive efforts. Instead of using one's Aries energies for selfish bullying, this would instead be turned into a drive to be a champion for your people.

You can use a soul freeing working to directly transmute negative desires or aspects of your soul, as well as the normal aspects of our path, like cleaning and empowering our soul.

People like Dahmer are examples of people whose Plutonian energies spiraled into a disaster. You should not influence yourself with him at all.

 

[Baphometii]

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Hello everyone,

I have a strong desire to hurt people. During sexual excitement, I talk to Satan and express my wishes to harm or send hexes or harm. Is this healthy? Am I being directed somewhere and does this mean anything? I hunger for all temptations of the flesh, and I hunger for control over people, I desire to manipulate and charm people, coerce them and bewitch them. What is happening to me?
I've basically gotten a strong desire 'to be lethal', but in a way that is concerning to me? I have been watching much about Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy etc and feel like I'm becoming something new entirely. Please don't be concerned by this I'm not a troll, I am being serious.

Kinda confused, like really confused. No offence intended

-Baphomentii

Yes, this is not healthy. Look at how our planetary energies operate to get an example of "normal".

For example, the home sign of Venus is in Libra, which suggests the default basis for love is one where you have a very romantic balance between partners, where each gives to another mutually.

What you describe sounds like a negative Plutonian influence. This can be transmuted into something positive, where you become a strongly positive transformative force on people's lives. Maybe you charm them into leading a better lifestyle, rather than coercing them into something destructive.

Another example of this is with Mars and Aries, where one needs to learn to wield this energies for constructive efforts. Instead of using one's Aries energies for selfish bullying, this would instead be turned into a drive to be a champion for your people.

You can use a soul freeing working to directly transmute negative desires or aspects of your soul, as well as the normal aspects of our path, like cleaning and empowering our soul.

People like Dahmer are examples of people whose Plutonian energies spiraled into a disaster. You should not influence yourself with him at all.

Thank you for this, a part of me knows I am quite a freak, and to be honest, It's concerning that others have seen it like that too. Wow.....okay, yeah I need to do something about this. Thanks again

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Thank you for this, a part of me knows I am quite a freak, and to be honest, It's concerning that others have seen it like that too. Wow.....okay, yeah I need to do something about this. Thanks again

This is not about denigrating yourself or anything, just recognizing where you can improve. Everyone has negative karma of some sort, but just different. Instead of aggression, someone could be overly fearful or sensitive about something, for example.

As far as what steps to take, you can start with the process described here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=76661

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Are you a jew? These things are very common for them. It is not common or normal for us.



Either way, it is very important for you to be careful about this to remove these thoughts. Do not watch or read anything about those kinds of evil topics. And if you ever start to think in that way, force yourself to change the subject and think about something else instead. Anybody can get into a habit of thinking about any subject if they think about it often. But it is also very possible and easy to create a new habit that replaces the old one. Create a new habit of thinking of good things.

 

[Sundara]

Hello everyone,

I have a strong desire to hurt people. During sexual excitement, I talk to Satan and express my wishes to harm or send hexes or harm. Is this healthy? Am I being directed somewhere and does this mean anything? I hunger for all temptations of the flesh, and I hunger for control over people, I desire to manipulate and charm people, coerce them and bewitch them. What is happening to me?
I've basically gotten a strong desire 'to be lethal', but in a way that is concerning to me? I have been watching much about Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy etc and feel like I'm becoming something new entirely. Please don't be concerned by this I'm not a troll, I am being serious.

Kinda confused, like really confused. No offence intended

-Baphomentii

First, if you’re only talking about cursing and mental imagery, technically “intrusive thoughts” about harm and you’re concerned about it, that actually indicates more of an opposite problem. Perhaps that you’re withdrawn and overly concerned with your own actions and thoughts not wanting to bring harm to someone. If you were an actual danger or if there were anything truly wrong with you, it’s likely you wouldn’t be bringing this up to begin with and you’d already have done these things but physically. When it comes to overthinking spiritual workings or cursing others, replace that with imagery of directing negative energy towards Jews.

Ocd type “intrusive thoughts” about harm (and I quote those because everyone gets these, and it becomes intrusive if a person is bothered by their own thoughts) you should be more comfortable with yourself. This can also lead to a person watching shows like what you’re describing and being concerned about becoming like these people. This sounds more like anxiety. I know multiple generally sane and healthy people who’ve had difficulty watching shows of that nature or having a bad experience with someone and then fearing that they’d become like that person. Trust yourself and be comfortable with yourself.

One was in a violent relationship and left. Since then she was wrought with anxiety and images and fears of accidentally killing someone because she was so angry. Be angry. Curse people.

If it’s not the case and you want to manipulate and fight, like it’s been said, do it properly and not to people who are generally normal or innocent... there are supposed “sociopaths” who are aware of this, catch themselves, and eventually stop. Or if you want to hurt people physically do it with good cause, like joining a fight club or be a phlebotomist or something. And meditate to develop some empathy.

Sometimes very empathetic or normal people have these feelings too and it’s totally healthy and normal in phases. No one can really tell you who you are at the end of the day except yourself.

But yeah, be charming and find your personal power just, maybe compare yourself to someone other than serial killers. Or don’t put it this way. If you illustrate yourself like a psycho then that’s kind of the what you’d be perceived as or the direction you could put yourself in.

We’ve also been desensitized as a population to view these shows in some sort of comical way almost as if they are -not real- and are just actors. Those people did actual atrocious things to the point where they’re not even human. They are disgusting, vile, and for some Jewish reason glamourized. They deserve no positive admiration or attention. If you’re just too desensitized and don’t understand the reality of this, that’s fixable and you could start by not rotting your mind with these fixations or by shifting your focus to the victims.

It’s their story, not the sick fucks who committed those crimes for their own enjoyment.

If a person finds themselves enjoying what was done to those victims and truly wanted to do that to others, then I think they should stay away from innocent or young people and seek help offline from someone licensed to do this.

A person like that won’t find solace or anyone like-minded in that sense here.

 

[Sunny]

These are bad thoughts. To get rid of them, you have to ignore them, forget them and replace them with normal thoughts.

For example, it is normal to be angry with enemies, but negative emotions also hurt the one who feels them if prolonged.

 

[Alexandros Iowno [JG]]

Go and practice a real sport, contact sport. Receive a few punches, then settle your uneducated impulses with discipline and respect for humans. You need to be educated by real fighters.

A monkey with a gun is lethal as well, I would bet without it, is also lethal. Past the Bollywood shocking ego pampering effect, there is only an upwards of good qualities to drive from this with effort and wisdom.

You can learn to be a warrior, with solid principles and mental ground, healthy body and capable to protect or have a career where your ability (needs development as you only have an emotional response to entertainment) of this kind can be put to use, again for protection or in sport for competition.

Stop watching low life criminals, and do watch sport or other good role models. Anyone is capable and is lethal, the only aspect that this catches you is the emotional shock from this that creates dopamine and wonder for you. In other words you misunderstand these things by watching idealized purposeful content, reality is different.

 

[CaspianTheDreamer]

I used to always feel extremely agitated and very furious and violent all the time. Turns out it was because of some hang up. Maybe it has to do with a certain trauma you endure.
Do some soul cleaning.