What do I do?

[Kramer]

I'm feeling very lost. Not knowing what to do or what to think. Most of the time I find myself thinking that my dreams were just illusions, that I was just born but not born to "live". It always seems like the people around me decide what my life will be like. Whenever I want something or have dreams of life, I suffer even more and consequently my dreams die. My life is in a critical situation. I lost my mother, I can't find a job (I've been looking for a job for 2 years), me and the people I live with, we live on rent, we live on my little brother's pension. I can't do anything anymore. I can't take care of myself, I don't go anywhere, every day without exception, I just live with the problems I'm having in my life since my mother passed away 1 year ago. So I've been living in agony for a year now. Unfortunately, all the problems I'm having in my life depend on other people to solve them. Unfortunately they are problems that I can't do anything but wait, but I've been waiting agonizingly for 1 year. I am only 21 years old. It makes me depressed to see the people I grew up with getting ahead in life, living life normally and me living this life of disgrace. I have no friends, I have absolutely no one to talk to. I'm practically alone. I can't take care of myself, my health or my appearance (which I just hate). I've asked Father Satan or my guardian for help several times, but no response. I feel totally alone in life, in the world... Sometimes it seems that I wasn't born to dream, that I was just born to be a slave to how the world and other people want my life to be. It seems the more I try to just live what I want, the more I get hurt. And I just wanted something simple. Being able to live away from everyone, but being able to sustain a peaceful and quiet life away from all that. It feels like I'm asking the universe. I can't see anywhere for me. No job, being supported by my little brother's pension, living on rent, totally alone with no friends and no one to talk to, several legal problems, loneliness, unhappiness with my appearance... I can't get out of it. I really don't know what else to do.

 

[DarkPagan666]

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I am sorry to hear about your mother passing and your life situation in general.

You need to raise your energies, they seem to be very, very low - which causes depression, lack of confidence, lack of ambition and so on. You also might have really bad planetary alignments currently, which influence your life with a lot of hardship. The good news is, this will pass. Sooner, if you do the necessary spiritual work!

Doing Asanas, breathing exercises and vibrating the mantra "Ek One Kara Satanaama Shiri Vhaa Guru" 20 times every day along with an affirmation "I am always secure, protected, safe and fine in every way that is very positive for me." Visualize yourself engulfed in brilliant white-gold light whilst affirming this.

Just doing the mantra every day for 40 days straight will truly change things for you. Vibrating that mantra 20 times takes somewhere to 10-15 minutes, if not less. Complete the session with an affirmation.

Another thing you absolutely should do is the Sun quare (link below), the Sun is in Leo now - I recommend the spiritual square in your case. You can use the same affirmation, as this also will help to improve things in your life. Or, you can use this affirmation "The energy of the sun square is making me highly motivated and confident at all times, in a very positive and happy way for me."

As you need a job, a material square can be done with the affirmation "the energy of the sun is giving me extremely huge amounts of money, wealth and a rich fortune in a most positive way for me."

https://joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Sun_Square.html

The Gods are very busy, remember that. Just because you cannot hear them, or see them, doesn't mean that they aren't by your side guiding you. Satan guide us through unseen means. This will get easier to observe as you advance. The Gods may have led you to seek help here even, just saying.

Now, it is really important that you actually raise your energies every day, if not, nothing will change.

Take care!

 

[Bravera]

Imagine for a moment, you are a great and wealthy man, with wife and children. Suddenly, war breaks out, you are sent to battle, you return home. And everything is gone...

Can you again claw your way back up above the nature of the universe. That which is always changing? Can you even accept that the law of this universe, of your own existence, is a constant state of change?

In the millions and trillions of years that have come before all of man. Do you truly believe it is your choices that have led you to this moment? In this body, in this family, in this home?

I would say, this is what Nature has prescribed to you, to all of man.

You must accept your past for what it was. But today, you have a choice! All species must wake up and challenge the ever changing universe not to rip them to shreds.

You must learn to exist in this chaotic universe, you can rise above and predict the flow, and when you see how actions lead to permanent change, you will find the actions that grant you power to control your fate.

Our existence, is the amalgamation of species who conquered the universe. It is in your blood, your DNA, your spirit, your soul, the TRUTH of your existence is Survival against the ever changing universe. But only in your ability to adapt and conquer will you obtain permanent and eternal success.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I'm feeling very lost. Not knowing what to do or what to think. Most of the time I find myself thinking that my dreams were just illusions, that I was just born but not born to "live". It always seems like the people around me decide what my life will be like. Whenever I want something or have dreams of life, I suffer even more and consequently my dreams die. My life is in a critical situation. I lost my mother, I can't find a job (I've been looking for a job for 2 years), me and the people I live with, we live on rent, we live on my little brother's pension. I can't do anything anymore. I can't take care of myself, I don't go anywhere, every day without exception, I just live with the problems I'm having in my life since my mother passed away 1 year ago. So I've been living in agony for a year now. Unfortunately, all the problems I'm having in my life depend on other people to solve them. Unfortunately they are problems that I can't do anything but wait, but I've been waiting agonizingly for 1 year. I am only 21 years old. It makes me depressed to see the people I grew up with getting ahead in life, living life normally and me living this life of disgrace. I have no friends, I have absolutely no one to talk to. I'm practically alone. I can't take care of myself, my health or my appearance (which I just hate). I've asked Father Satan or my guardian for help several times, but no response. I feel totally alone in life, in the world... Sometimes it seems that I wasn't born to dream, that I was just born to be a slave to how the world and other people want my life to be. It seems the more I try to just live what I want, the more I get hurt. And I just wanted something simple. Being able to live away from everyone, but being able to sustain a peaceful and quiet life away from all that. It feels like I'm asking the universe. I can't see anywhere for me. No job, being supported by my little brother's pension, living on rent, totally alone with no friends and no one to talk to, several legal problems, loneliness, unhappiness with my appearance... I can't get out of it. I really don't know what else to do.

On August 7th, you can start a basic wealth working with Fehu and Saulo. Program it like "I always have the wealth and opportunities to meet my general needs and wants, in the best manifestation for me." x8

If you use x40 Fehu and x40 Sowilo, this won't take you long at all, perhaps 15-20 minutes. Continue as long as necessary, but at least 40 days.

Besides the above, it sounds like you are undergoing some harsh transit(s) of some kind. It is more important now than ever that you keep up with your meditations. From what you described before, you were making good progress, but giving up too early. Don't stop for any reason.

I would highly recommend, for the sake of both your mood, health/appearance, and spiritual situation, that you make large use of yoga. How familiar are you with hatha yoga? Have you tried kundalini yoga? Besides these, even the breath of fire or alternate nose breathing can help you feel better in the short term.

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Doing the above would be the first step that you can take right now to help yourself. You must realize that these will change your situation, both directly and indirectly, as well as give you a foundation to make more progress towards larger problems.

In reality, you are at the start of your adult life and not "behind" anyone. It sounds more like you are getting a harsh wake-up call, but this is not the same as an end-of-the-world situation. Although it may feel hard, the actions you do now will pull you out of this hole.

I think the very first step you should do is some form of physical exercise to energize yourself. This is why I suggested the JoS Yoga Routines, but more simply, the breath of fire or alternate nose breathing.

The above will help you feel a little happier, as well as have the energy to start to implement long-term solutions through both basic meditations, as well as larger workings.

I hope this helps you! Give us an update about your efforts and results, at a later date.