Ignisalas
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- Joined
- Nov 4, 2017
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I've had alot of doubts about myself on this path. I like the idea of empowering myself with occult teachings and stuff, but I've always had a worry that I might be jewish but Im not sure.
I did the dedication and everything and nothing bad happened to me, also Ive done the RTRs and had no bad effects. I've been feeling really down and out about myself lately and I just want to get some clear signs that Satan is still in my life but im not sure were to look.
i've tried talking with Satan and my guadian but I can never seem to get a good response or anything. It really makes me feel alone sometimes and causes worry in me.
Its the worst feeling ever to feel the way I do sometimes and I cant seem to shake it off and keep going. Its caused me to just stop meditating in the past because I feel like im just alone, abandoned and unwelcome in Satanism, and that causes me to be afraid and worry that what if im jewish and its just the worst feeling.
I try to keep calm and just tell myself that its just a psychic attack and i'll be fine. I've noticed that whenever I try to meditate I always get horrible thoughts about Satan, and I also get down and feeling depressed and sad after I meditate, and it causes me to get distracted from the meditations. I wish I could find a way to safely communicate to Satan and my guardian without any worries that enemies will try to interfere.
The sad and depressing feeling also happens shortly after I attempted to communicate with them sometimes. Sometimes I guess its just me and I let my thoughts control my emotions and feelings and it causes alot of these bad thoughts.
I'd like to get closer to Satan and my guardian and feel happy and confident while on this path. People that can casually speak with them and see them will never understand how I feel sometimes its the worst.
I did the dedication and everything and nothing bad happened to me, also Ive done the RTRs and had no bad effects. I've been feeling really down and out about myself lately and I just want to get some clear signs that Satan is still in my life but im not sure were to look.
i've tried talking with Satan and my guadian but I can never seem to get a good response or anything. It really makes me feel alone sometimes and causes worry in me.
Its the worst feeling ever to feel the way I do sometimes and I cant seem to shake it off and keep going. Its caused me to just stop meditating in the past because I feel like im just alone, abandoned and unwelcome in Satanism, and that causes me to be afraid and worry that what if im jewish and its just the worst feeling.
I try to keep calm and just tell myself that its just a psychic attack and i'll be fine. I've noticed that whenever I try to meditate I always get horrible thoughts about Satan, and I also get down and feeling depressed and sad after I meditate, and it causes me to get distracted from the meditations. I wish I could find a way to safely communicate to Satan and my guardian without any worries that enemies will try to interfere.
The sad and depressing feeling also happens shortly after I attempted to communicate with them sometimes. Sometimes I guess its just me and I let my thoughts control my emotions and feelings and it causes alot of these bad thoughts.
I'd like to get closer to Satan and my guardian and feel happy and confident while on this path. People that can casually speak with them and see them will never understand how I feel sometimes its the worst.