Little Lion 123
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For over a month I have had a voice in my head that won't go away, from the moment I go to bed to the moment I wake up 'it' is speaking to me. It claims to be a Goddess at times and other times it pretends to be a God. Sometimes it will claim to be people from my past, and other times it will claim to be members from this very forum. The voice in my head is making it very hard to do things. For example, when I attempt void meditation my eyes will get fucked with and 'it' will continue to speak to me and do whatever possible to distract me. Every time I sit down to do meditation 'it' will claim that this is boring. 'It' is always telling me to 'hang out' and indulge in habits that are negative to me. Like I quit playing video games and it manipulated me into playing video games again, same thing with porn. At this point I understand that I need to have control over my own actions, but it is hard when you have a voice in the back of your head talking to you 24/7. I have not had a quiet moment in my mind in 2 months. I can count the times 'it' has stopped talking on one hand and it is the most blissful experience for me, yet this will only last for 5 seconds at most before 'it' will continue talking again.
If this is a benevolent being then I cannot understand why they are speaking to me 24/7 whenever all this is doing is wasting my time and their time. Is there anything I can do to make 'it' go away?
If this is a benevolent being then I cannot understand why they are speaking to me 24/7 whenever all this is doing is wasting my time and their time. Is there anything I can do to make 'it' go away?