TerKorian666 said:
I would like to say that these were mainly ideas, and I was mainly spitting "venom" at others.
I never physically hurt anyone, I left that behind, it was another era where I wasn't even SS and where I hung out with deranged people.
Now I know that acting physically in this way would only lead me to prison.
I often feel how empty the thought of achieving such results can make me feel, and I often see that much of this is illusory, but when I am irritated or offended this mentality takes over (not always).
As for venting anger, the idea I had is to do self-programming to be able to vent completely with RTRs, for some reason I hadn't thought of that before.
I can say it's liberating and it's a nice flowing stream.
There are actually times when I can see the importance of a message and then I listen and take it in, in the forums it happens more than out there.
Moving forward there are times when I struggle with these mindsets, and other times when the negativity is greater and leads me to behave in strange ways.
Blitzkreig [JG said:
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The example about soldiers is quite good and that is one of the reasons I am still here, I see the potential of JoS and what it can bring to the world, and that is beyond any negative mindset, and outside influences can bring conflict between these two concepts.
One of the reasons I don't interact with outside people as much is because they don't have this group feeling and they don't have any higher mission, much less similar attitudes.
In the darkest moments I strive and try to push into myself a more Satanic mindset, which conflicts with other negativity and limits it.
This could be why one simply does not explode in violence and uses common sense, but the outburst then happens verbally or conceptually.
I know that deep down in the soul there can be a familial love for community, and it is possible to manage it as Gods manage us, but just that for the current times I see it as an unrealistic prospect.
Let's say that even I can see beyond certain attitudes, maybe not in a completely lucid way, but I can see, I'm not completely trapped.
Shadowcat said:
Yes, it's basically envy, and at such times I don't think clearly and take all factors into consideration.
The one from my period where I can abuse everyone is unconsciously aimed at the jews, so after brief reasoning the oppressors to be punished would be them, the idea of picking on society in general was an old idea created in a moment of low understanding.
This is also true, I don't always have a complete idea of the topic I am discussing, and I would probably be the one who should be silent.
What I recounted about my Demon Lover is not exactly the same as you described, I must have misunderstood myself.
The matter is more complex.
However I was present in the forums before the Vira_ account, just look at Verità_666.
As you might have guessed from the responses I am solving various problems and already have plans for this, to solve part of this I would like to thank an Italian forum user who made a post where he suggested that negative tendencies such as suicide or the like are often influences of entities or thought forms attached to one's soul, as the soul is not designed for these tendencies.
I tried is I found something similar to what you read in the previous post, it is probably something that has been created slowly since the past.