Stormblood said:
everyone wants to achieve apotheosis in this life. Some people just want quirky siddhis, others just want to reach the point of keeping their memories intact, other have other goals.
Honestly I never considered someone could be on this path and not want to reach the Godhead ASAP. It feels hard to imagine knowing the Gods created us with the potential to reach Godhead and not want to reach that. I subscribe to Socrates words in my mindset. I feel as if it'd be a disgrace to myself and to the Gods to grow old without reaching my limit and breaking that. It's probably my only fear I have left that I might once again forget the Gods love and kindness and this loyalty that burns in my soul. I hate the idea of forgetting myself, and forgetting again the care I've been given. I have too much gratitude I have to repay, so this perspective is hard to imagine.
Not sure what the point of this was other than to thank you for helping me see other perspectives. I'm usually good at that, but this is a rare case I couldn't.