New to all of this. Was led here on a whim in search for meaning- after a painful situation which left me feeling like I'm one of a rare breed of people on this planet, someone who actually has empathy. Someone who is actually "real", in a world full of fake people, liars, deceivers, manipulators. I'm sick of this shit. Sometimes I wish my heart was black like everyone else in this world so I could protect myself from others.
So, this is a long story- that I am going to cut short to save myself some time and much needed energy- since I feel quite drained. I am 25 years old, and a woman came into my life recently- who left me hurt, heartbroken and manipulated. I met this girl and we fell for each-other. Hard. Or so I thought. You see, I am a person who keeps his guard up- I've been cheated on and lied to so many times in this life that I don't let anyone in my heart so easily. But, this girl had every single quality to tempt me, and break down my wall of defense. (Almost as if some sort of evil entity sent her on purpose to attack me). This girl was absolutely drop dead gorgeous, was so sweet and kind to me in the beginning. The very first week we spent together, this girl had bought me dinners, lunches, a 150 dollar tattoo dedicated to my mother, and spent much time sweet talking me and manipulating me- in order to soften my heart. (Calling me beautiful, the a most amazing person she had ever met, telling me she wanted me to meet her family in her home town, telling me how beautiful our children would be, etc.) Anything you can think of to make a man fall for you quickly- and, I'm embarrassed to say it worked quite well. Her beauty was out of this world, and the sweet mask she wore to break me down was very effective.
Long story short- once she used all her tricks to get inside my heart, and I began reciprocating the same loving energy she gave me, she suddenly flipped. She tried hooking up with my best friend Halloween night- then suddenly disappeared from my life like I was nothing. I'm left extremely hurt and confused. This girl came from a background of a lot of abuse from men in her life, I truly believe she didn't know how to handle someone caring about her properly- thus undermining what we could of had together- I don't think she believed she deserved to be loved by anyone. I believe in my heart this girl did truly love me, but some sort of dark mentally ill part of her made her lash out and stab me in the back.
At first as I began writing this, I wanted some sort of revenge spell- but I think what I need is a love spell to remove the blockage of trauma making her want to lash out at the people she loves, and to return her to me. I want us to be together- and I'm pretty sure a part of her wanted us to...
I'm very new to all of this. I don't even know where to begin. I want this girl back in my life more than anything.
Can someone point me in the right direction- or even guide me through this process? I'd be beyond grateful...
Thank you.
If anyone has further questions about this story I'd be more than happy to answer- I just couldn't write every last detail since I've been feeling so depleted of energy lately from all of this...
So, this is a long story- that I am going to cut short to save myself some time and much needed energy- since I feel quite drained. I am 25 years old, and a woman came into my life recently- who left me hurt, heartbroken and manipulated. I met this girl and we fell for each-other. Hard. Or so I thought. You see, I am a person who keeps his guard up- I've been cheated on and lied to so many times in this life that I don't let anyone in my heart so easily. But, this girl had every single quality to tempt me, and break down my wall of defense. (Almost as if some sort of evil entity sent her on purpose to attack me). This girl was absolutely drop dead gorgeous, was so sweet and kind to me in the beginning. The very first week we spent together, this girl had bought me dinners, lunches, a 150 dollar tattoo dedicated to my mother, and spent much time sweet talking me and manipulating me- in order to soften my heart. (Calling me beautiful, the a most amazing person she had ever met, telling me she wanted me to meet her family in her home town, telling me how beautiful our children would be, etc.) Anything you can think of to make a man fall for you quickly- and, I'm embarrassed to say it worked quite well. Her beauty was out of this world, and the sweet mask she wore to break me down was very effective.
Long story short- once she used all her tricks to get inside my heart, and I began reciprocating the same loving energy she gave me, she suddenly flipped. She tried hooking up with my best friend Halloween night- then suddenly disappeared from my life like I was nothing. I'm left extremely hurt and confused. This girl came from a background of a lot of abuse from men in her life, I truly believe she didn't know how to handle someone caring about her properly- thus undermining what we could of had together- I don't think she believed she deserved to be loved by anyone. I believe in my heart this girl did truly love me, but some sort of dark mentally ill part of her made her lash out and stab me in the back.
At first as I began writing this, I wanted some sort of revenge spell- but I think what I need is a love spell to remove the blockage of trauma making her want to lash out at the people she loves, and to return her to me. I want us to be together- and I'm pretty sure a part of her wanted us to...
I'm very new to all of this. I don't even know where to begin. I want this girl back in my life more than anything.
Can someone point me in the right direction- or even guide me through this process? I'd be beyond grateful...
Thank you.
If anyone has further questions about this story I'd be more than happy to answer- I just couldn't write every last detail since I've been feeling so depleted of energy lately from all of this...