Hello brothers and sisters. I practically haven't been here for 2 years, maybe 1 I can't remember. I hope everyone is doing well! I come asking for advice. So for the past, shit it's almost been a fucking year now, I have been using Benedryl, which is Diphenhydramine, and Clonidine 0.1 MG almost every single night. Sometimes I mix the two drugs sometimes just use one or the other but usually its one to three pills I'm taking a night, sometimes half a pill a night.
The problem I face is that feeling of drowsiness, it is hard for me to feel drowsy without taking a pill, and there are rare nights I do feel it, but sometimes I'll lay in bed for an hour not able to sleep because my mind won't stop running.
I have neglected my meditations, I rarely meditate, I've done two breathing foundation meditations this week which is pretty much all I've done in the past month or so. Basically I think I might be stressed because I'm having trouble finding a job/passing an interview. I really feel confused and I hate to admit it. The main thing I ask of you is if you know a meditation or hymn, just something to calm my mind and bring me to sleep at night. I'm a Libra, which is Air element, so my mind is always full of thoughts, which is fine in the day but not at night.
I feel like I'm going to type forever, please excuse this, I would feel remiss if I didn't post everything related to this, because I want full diagnosis and advice. The thing is, is at night time I usually feel so wide awake and relaxed yet full of thoughts and just feeling good I guess. I drink one to three cups of coffee a day, some days I don't drink coffee which is maybe 4 or 5 days a week I drink coffee, maybe add a day depending on the week.
Okay, so yeah, hard to sleep, mind races when I try. Does anyone have anything that doesn't require money, because money is very tight as of this moment and the past year. It's possible the stress is getting to me idk, I always feel I don't have time to meditate fully, and I know it's basically all my own fault, I do feel I want to escape a lot. I play video games almost every day, when I finish a video game sometimes I get wrapped up in YouTube videos and such, so it's easy for me to get into shit that I'm doing.
Maybe I need more Earth element inside me, I don't know. Hopefully this is enough info and you understand the situation. I want to be able to not rely on pills to sleep basically. So if anyone has experience or advice I very much welcome that
I hope I posted this in the most helpful group, there's so many jos groups I'm subscribed to I just kinda chose this one randomly. Thank you all and I'm going to stop typing for now because I feel I'll go on forever. Thank you for your time!
The problem I face is that feeling of drowsiness, it is hard for me to feel drowsy without taking a pill, and there are rare nights I do feel it, but sometimes I'll lay in bed for an hour not able to sleep because my mind won't stop running.
I have neglected my meditations, I rarely meditate, I've done two breathing foundation meditations this week which is pretty much all I've done in the past month or so. Basically I think I might be stressed because I'm having trouble finding a job/passing an interview. I really feel confused and I hate to admit it. The main thing I ask of you is if you know a meditation or hymn, just something to calm my mind and bring me to sleep at night. I'm a Libra, which is Air element, so my mind is always full of thoughts, which is fine in the day but not at night.
I feel like I'm going to type forever, please excuse this, I would feel remiss if I didn't post everything related to this, because I want full diagnosis and advice. The thing is, is at night time I usually feel so wide awake and relaxed yet full of thoughts and just feeling good I guess. I drink one to three cups of coffee a day, some days I don't drink coffee which is maybe 4 or 5 days a week I drink coffee, maybe add a day depending on the week.
Okay, so yeah, hard to sleep, mind races when I try. Does anyone have anything that doesn't require money, because money is very tight as of this moment and the past year. It's possible the stress is getting to me idk, I always feel I don't have time to meditate fully, and I know it's basically all my own fault, I do feel I want to escape a lot. I play video games almost every day, when I finish a video game sometimes I get wrapped up in YouTube videos and such, so it's easy for me to get into shit that I'm doing.
Maybe I need more Earth element inside me, I don't know. Hopefully this is enough info and you understand the situation. I want to be able to not rely on pills to sleep basically. So if anyone has experience or advice I very much welcome that
I hope I posted this in the most helpful group, there's so many jos groups I'm subscribed to I just kinda chose this one randomly. Thank you all and I'm going to stop typing for now because I feel I'll go on forever. Thank you for your time!
