Today I performed Lord Janus' ritual for the first time. I have observed really strange reactions in myself and I would like to share them with you.
First of all, I would like to point out that I am someone who always includes gods rituals in my routine from the moment they first came out and does it as much as I can. It's been like this since our father's ritual first appeared.
But Lord Janus' ritual gave me really different experiences among all the others and I couldn't make sense of it myself.
I must say that if you are a Satanist and even have any involuntary doubts about the gods, you should try these rituals and observe and be aware of their effects on your soul and the feelings they awaken in you.
Now I want to talk a little bit about the effects it had on me. I have to mention that these feelings I had were literally "not positive" in every way. I didn't feel that much of an effect while performing the ritual, but when the ritual was over and I focused on the seal and got energy from Lord Bifrons, I started to feel these effects.
instead of a feeling of happiness or power that normally comes with other god rituals, I felt an inexplicable depression. The fatigue and heaviness came over me so much that I thought as if I should lie down on the bed and immediately lay down on my bed.
As soon as I went to bed, I felt a strong and bright aura. I saw in my mind a handsome man with blond long and wavy hair. Before I went to sleep, I dreamed that I was hugging that man with the weight of sleep and the "drunkenness" of that moment, and then I fell asleep. that hug was a hug with warmth, like a child hugs his father
Then I woke up and literally felt like I had been hit by a car or just come out of surgery. I woke up with a completely high head and was like drunk. A truly disgusting exhaustion and depression came over me. I felt clean and safe, but I still really felt that depression to the core.
this depression and fatigue continued for the next few hours but now those negative feelings have subsided and I just feel a little tired and languid. but I have enough motivation and energy to ask questions about my strange experience.
What do you think about this subject? How did Lord Janus' ritual affect your soul? Could you please explain in detail if possible because I enjoy reading and seeing other people's experiences
First of all, I would like to point out that I am someone who always includes gods rituals in my routine from the moment they first came out and does it as much as I can. It's been like this since our father's ritual first appeared.
But Lord Janus' ritual gave me really different experiences among all the others and I couldn't make sense of it myself.
I must say that if you are a Satanist and even have any involuntary doubts about the gods, you should try these rituals and observe and be aware of their effects on your soul and the feelings they awaken in you.
Now I want to talk a little bit about the effects it had on me. I have to mention that these feelings I had were literally "not positive" in every way. I didn't feel that much of an effect while performing the ritual, but when the ritual was over and I focused on the seal and got energy from Lord Bifrons, I started to feel these effects.
instead of a feeling of happiness or power that normally comes with other god rituals, I felt an inexplicable depression. The fatigue and heaviness came over me so much that I thought as if I should lie down on the bed and immediately lay down on my bed.
As soon as I went to bed, I felt a strong and bright aura. I saw in my mind a handsome man with blond long and wavy hair. Before I went to sleep, I dreamed that I was hugging that man with the weight of sleep and the "drunkenness" of that moment, and then I fell asleep. that hug was a hug with warmth, like a child hugs his father
Then I woke up and literally felt like I had been hit by a car or just come out of surgery. I woke up with a completely high head and was like drunk. A truly disgusting exhaustion and depression came over me. I felt clean and safe, but I still really felt that depression to the core.
this depression and fatigue continued for the next few hours but now those negative feelings have subsided and I just feel a little tired and languid. but I have enough motivation and energy to ask questions about my strange experience.
What do you think about this subject? How did Lord Janus' ritual affect your soul? Could you please explain in detail if possible because I enjoy reading and seeing other people's experiences
