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The Recycle Bin Of Life & Excuses

Regarding the "recycle bin", I find that I have much more interest in wanting to save the few people I care about from this recycle bin, than saving myself. They are uncommon souls and I want them to have a better life.

But when it comes to myself, I am apathetic or indifferent. In some way I don't even think I am worthy. Maybe I feel on some level that I am deserving to return to dust.

I regret that I don't have the power to take care of the good people that passed through my life, and it's my fault, for neglecting myself.
I often feel like you, possibly we share similar traumas, or so.
I feel a giver, and I am only now learning to take care of myself, slowly, and hardly.
I found that, each time I try to help a damaged person who had problems similar to mine, I end up helping myself too. Each time I write a message, a letter (sometimes I do to valuable people struggling with life to encourage them), I feel like I am also partially talking to myself.
So I think is some ways you may have took care of yourself, too, while also trying to support others.
While I understand the frustration of not being able to take care of good people, it tastes of failure for me too, but at the unconscious level any actions still have power and effects, weven if their karma or destiny may overpower our efforts.

To stay on the topic, I just learned that making efforts is basic, leaving things "go with the flow" with no action, may worsen things.
 
Most people exist in their lives in completely oblivious manners. They exist as if they will live for a thousand years, or as if the world does not necessitate that you take certain actions for yourself today. Not only the world needs this, but you also.

They act as if 70, 80, or 90 years of age are "a certainty", thinking their 20's, 30's, 40's, 50's or 60's can be wasted entirely. "That's life", they keep telling the goyim, which pointlessly tries to lead the same life as a 15 year old, all the way to 65 years old of age.

"There is not enough time", people complain, seeking pointlessly their "immortality". They want immortality, to compensate for the lost time - time that they want to borrow so they can lose again. For no reason.

You will sit there and debate for 10 years if you should meditate or go to the gym. Or if you should read a book. How many years have went by already while you did that? How did that turn out?

Years pass you by, you are in your 40's and 50's, and then you think that "now you might do this", but you haven't done this before so you feel it's getting too late. You know it's never too late, but you will make it look like it's late, even if you are 20 years old; you know how to lie to yourself quite well, as have all of us before we advanced under the Gods.

Instead of becoming better liars with ourselves, we just decided to become better at accepting life and getting closer to the Truth. That is the only magical recipe there is around for the most part.

Albeit it's a lie, you again procrastinate. "It is too late, I cannot do this, maybe later", you will say. "The JoS will exist in the future, maybe another time", you tell yourself, not laying a brick to ensure that end in many cases. Like having a greatest opportunity, one does not use it. Then the opportunity departs - nobody kept it on high enough importance.

Like a woman that left on the subway and you did not ask her name, she has left also, never to be found again. You go again to the subway and you know you will not have this opportunity again. "Another day" you tell yourself, to feel better about the lost opportunity of growth. "I have too many problems, I cannot do this now. Maybe tomorrow.". Tomorrow comes and it's treated again like yesterday, replaced with one more "Tomorrow".

Eventually you figure out what major fuckup you have been doing against yourself. Rage starts to build inside. Instead of advancing, you chose to spend the last 6 months chattering, or hating others, or feeling jealousy, inferiority, and dwindling in self destruction. Your higher self observes you and puts in your head that this was wrong, you denied her/him once again.

Even though every day they told you what to do, you did not do it. "Tomorrow" you answered them.

One day comes then when the luxury of tomorrow does not exist. Then eventually you die off without having done anything meaningful for humanity or for yourself. Even the smallest gesture. Nothing discovered out of life. You enter the recycling bin and you reincarnate, purposelessly, without making any use of your time.

Then when all the beings go to the Gods, they ask for one more opportunity, to do better the next time around. But many opportunities that were bright as gold and in front of you, might no longer be there; you have to fight again with the means that remain. The few remains that remain, are because of those who did not do what you did against yourself.

The cyclical process continues with souls getting weaker and weaker, until humanity again is on the stone age again, falling down. For all your failures, you blame the Gods, the stars, those in "Power", bad "presidents", me, or the other guy sitting on the bench across the subway.

Deep down you know it was only you; at least the part you was able to manage, you did not manage it. It's just easier to say it was someone else; their lack of abilities, how they didn't manage things as they were "supposed to". The list is long.

You will sit there waiting for 10 years, until things that could save the world no longer exist, to finally donate 10$. Years will pass you by, and the hordes of the enemy will be at the gates. 9.9 out of these 10 years will be put there to blame me. You will seek for a post I made in 2013 to make up just another excuse, of something, to say that this was the reason you were incapable to follow the teaching and save yourself.

Healthy and sane, blessed 18 year old kids, will turn to 38 years old, thinking "what could they have done for the JoS, for themselves and for humanity", yet instead another person who is 65 years old, is going to take this seriously - life experience shouts louder to them. They will have a soul light as feather, and they will advance. You will be young, but if you keep wasting your time, you will become very old; like these perished people that walk around like empty husks, never having the faintest idea of having a soul.

Then in this you will blame someone else. If I know of one thing, is that no matter what I have done, it's never "enough", and of course, you always get the blame for helping and a lot more glory for pushing humans to their ultimate disaster. I chose to do the first despite of the most extreme inconvenience known to man. "I, he, she, it (the system)" will again "Be to blame". Anything, as long as it prolongs the state of ignorance, will do as an answer.

You will know it is a lie and that deep inside it was you who was wronging yourself, but you will convince yourself real hard to avoid guilt or facing it. So I have to bring you to face that. How are you with advancement and with yourself? Nothing extreme is needed here, nothing back breaking. But do you do the basic lifting? If so, enjoy your existence and be glad that is the case; billions will go straight into the recycle bin and you will not.

For those who do not do it, life passes you by, then again to the recycle bin it goes. More days have been spent looking at random women online, and more hours on Instagram or TikTok, than living a valid life, or breathing some air in your lungs and saying "I appreciate the gift of life". Of all the wasteful epochs, now we live in one where to waste all your existence and human potential, is the easiest it ever was.

You wanted to do X and X in life, and out of the tens of thousands of desires your mind will generate, afflicted by social media or lack of inner guidance, you will not even focus to accomplish 2 of these, because you sent a standard for 10,000 desires instead, while not focusing to empower yourself to focus on even just 2. These 2 goals would already make you great, but are you afraid to be great?

An idiot will come across Spiritual Satanism today, and a wise person. The idiot will create around 500 excuses to not participate. It's too hard, it's scary, the website is black, or they will insert any reasoning under the sun to avoid getting enlightened. The doubt will bug them, and they will know they are probably incorrect deep inside. They will ignore it and go play Playstation 5, and pray for GTA 6 to come live; maybe that will aleviate their pain.

The wise person will, instead of making 500 excuses, give 1 opportunity to the Gods to present themselves in their sorry lives. And this 1 opportunity, they will treat as a treasure, understanding what they found. And they will walk and walk, until they reach closer and closer to the Higher Beings, and also live a fulfilling life. They will also play Playstation 5, but not their whole existence will be around this as avoidance; it will be more just another delicacy into the life of the wise one, who wants to have a soul and did not succumb to fear.

Most people will be category 1. Few others will be category 2. One does not need to be a mastermind to figure it out. One just has to observe humanity just a bit carefully.

Long story short this message is not supposed to be a linguistic masterpiece or try very hard to convince you. It's more like a reminder, to use your time, energy and existence a bit wisely. A bit more like the Gods or aspiring Gods would do. A bit more like your life matters.

"This post will make me feel bad", one will say. "It hurts me". Yet, for the person that does not do this, this post will indeed be balm upon all their wounds and their souls. "How good I am healing, to not be offended by this post", they will think to themselves. "I am thankful for waking up to that fact and finally loving myself", they will think.

All I have tried to teach human beings here if anything, is to ascribe value to your existence and to not end up in this state of the recycle bin. To live a life with less regrets, more development and more "life inside your life". Preachers of death, self mutilation, those who want you to be miserable, are heard by many.

I am heard by few. Few want to live, and even fewer are those who will actually lift themselves today and say to themselves: "No more, I believe I deserve a bit better. Time to advance. No matter what is on my plate, I will have hope, and I will advance upward. There is something up there and is calling me".

Do not wait to answer the call another 10 years. You will only extend your regret.



Excuses only will multiply suffering and problems. As one grows we understand that we must encounter the issues. Then when we do and we sort them out, we become elated in pleasure and in empowerment, knowing we succeeded.

Excuses will never have this outcome, only more suffering will arrive.




-High Priest Hooded Cobra 666
Thanks HP, I know that I'm not the best outhere, but I hope that if I try to best the best version of myself, and at least do something (advancement, rituals, and helping the JoS), I can still exist in the new world.
 
Yule of 2022 I made a promise to Father Satan well beyond my capabilities. It was frustrating how little work I could make myself accomplish toward the goal, how much more time I spent daydreaming rather than working. And while the daydreaming and thinking wasn't without some value, it wasn't nearly enough. I barely put 10,000 words to paper that year, and ended it feeling a failure, barely trying to get most of the work done in the last month of that year.

I ended 2023 with barely a seed of what I wanted to accomplish.

Compared to that year, the past six months, I put more words to paper, scraping and reworking so much, I have more and more a clearer understanding of what I can do, confidence in my abilities, and my purpose,

I pray it's at the end of this year, I can finally complete my promise.

Thank you HP.
 
The wise person will, instead of making 500 excuses, give 1 opportunity to the Gods to present themselves in their sorry lives. And this 1 opportunity, they will treat as a treasure, understanding what they found. And they will walk and walk, until they reach closer and closer to the Higher Beings, and also live a fulfilling life. They will also play Playstation 5, but not their whole existence will be around this as avoidance; it will be more just another delicacy into the life of the wise one, who wants to have a soul and did not succumb to fear.

Most people will be category 1. Few others will be category 2.
And I didn't suspect that people could be Satanists and at the same time play video games and why they get a sermon, and people from category 3 who don't play are not even mentioned. Oh no, it can't be, it's because the target audience of the priest is people who play, I'll pray that there won't be a post called "gamer lives matter🕹️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♂️".
 
I'm not sure if I fear being great, but I know I'm ashamed of praise, see pride with disgust, & I am friends with worthlessness & defeat due to the time I carried dissociation. It took me 7 years to find my way to curing it myself, but I rid that 9 years ago now. At first I felt invincible after getting rid of dissociation itself almost a decade ago, but my old mindset has stayed with me.

I explained to someone that alchemy is like Michael Jordan practicing basketball. He would practice physically more than anyone, but he'd also imagine making the shots while off the court. I have been doing this manifestation negatively on myself since age 6, heavily since 16, with my thoughts, thousands of times a year for decades. My dissociation was connected to learning to deserve punishment, & when certain rewards were close, I would suddenly shrink into a tiny spot behind my eyes & witness the world as a passenger from behind my eyes. This was severely attached to women & career between ages 16-32 so, you can imagine the pervasiveness of this grey colored festering rumination.

My first career example was personal training in 2002. I got a B on the written exam & aced the labs, yet never actually got a personal trainer certification because when calling for a 20 hour internship after completing the class, my conscious experience & body perception would shrink seated behind my eyes before making the phone call. I quickly gave up & got scared because "freezing" & "invisible walls" (I didn't call it dissociation until within 2 months of curing myself of it) had suddenly spread from women to career. I still embody the beliefs of the results of these moments.

I do not know how to reverse this. That is a lot of core belief self-hypnosis for an extended period of time. I feel like I have been tarnished & diluted with an imposter, like trauma changed me & now I live with a haunting specter that's a mix of me & poison. There are things the universe is screaming at me that I'm clearly meant to do, & I am definitely funny & a very skilled drummer...but funny at work as yet another says "you should be a comedian", & I've not been in a band for 15 years even though I'm finally drumming in blastbeats territory. In some way, every skill I ever touched, I carry them all with me through practice.
I never quit, I simply never succeed,
& I do not know how to transmute this core hypnotic poison.
 
One day after you die, you will be lying somewhere and you will count the life you lived, remember every part of it, happiness and misery. And in the end you will be able to say that you have been yourself and have carried on another chapter of existence.

It's not even about Spiritual Satanism, it's literally about living life.

I don't know about you, but the dishonor of having made stupid mistakes is something inconceivable, better to live with depth, honor and self-respect.
 
I'm not sure if I fear being great, but I know I'm ashamed of praise, see pride with disgust, & I am friends with worthlessness & defeat due to the time I carried dissociation. It took me 7 years to find my way to curing it myself, but I rid that 9 years ago now. At first I felt invincible after getting rid of dissociation itself almost a decade ago, but my old mindset has stayed with me.

I explained to someone that alchemy is like Michael Jordan practicing basketball. He would practice physically more than anyone, but he'd also imagine making the shots while off the court. I have been doing this manifestation negatively on myself since age 6, heavily since 16, with my thoughts, thousands of times a year for decades. My dissociation was connected to learning to deserve punishment, & when certain rewards were close, I would suddenly shrink into a tiny spot behind my eyes & witness the world as a passenger from behind my eyes. This was severely attached to women & career between ages 16-32 so, you can imagine the pervasiveness of this grey colored festering rumination.

My first career example was personal training in 2002. I got a B on the written exam & aced the labs, yet never actually got a personal trainer certification because when calling for a 20 hour internship after completing the class, my conscious experience & body perception would shrink seated behind my eyes before making the phone call. I quickly gave up & got scared because "freezing" & "invisible walls" (I didn't call it dissociation until within 2 months of curing myself of it) had suddenly spread from women to career. I still embody the beliefs of the results of these moments.

I do not know how to reverse this. That is a lot of core belief self-hypnosis for an extended period of time. I feel like I have been tarnished & diluted with an imposter, like trauma changed me & now I live with a haunting specter that's a mix of me & poison. There are things the universe is screaming at me that I'm clearly meant to do, & I am definitely funny & a very skilled drummer...but funny at work as yet another says "you should be a comedian", & I've not been in a band for 15 years even though I'm finally drumming in blastbeats territory. In some way, every skill I ever touched, I carry them all with me through practice.
I never quit, I simply never succeed,
& I do not know how to transmute this core hypnotic poison.
Hello,

You seem to be on the right track about correcting the course as you have come to understand what truly made you fail. To succeed, imagine going in another direction. To put it simply, you need to reprogram your mind gradually. The more effort you put into this the faster the results will be. The practices laid out on the Joy of Satan webpage will help you immensely once you get going with them. I wish you the best of luck in your journey.
 
And I didn't suspect that people could be Satanists and at the same time play video games and why they get a sermon, and people from category 3 who don't play are not even mentioned. Oh no, it can't be, it's because the target audience of the priest is people who play, I'll pray that there won't be a post called "gamer lives matter🕹️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♂️".
It's too bad you take what he said in such a literal manner and miss the point. Not only that, but you resort to some sort of sarcasm due to this misunderstanding...

What he meant is that people can also indulge in entertainment (or other similar things) for the sake of relaxation. But to make relaxation the whole point of their existence is the wrong course to take. So, you see, there is no preference towards gamers or anything, just an example of not to waste time.
 
We've all just gotta find that niche and live.
Sometimes, there's no niche for you, other than the niche you decide to work toward. For example, people with no particular career path shown in their chart just need to choose one and stick to it, rather than constantly changing in the hopes of finding something 'ideal' that doesn't exist.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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