Hey , I'm a 17 year old gay male trying to join illuminati. I have had a bad life my mom been going through some bad stuff through her life . And for months I been thinking about joining illuminati cause I i just tier of it all . All i dream about is becoming a famous singer/actor & Its not gonna come true unless i perfrom illuminati . I just need some information about it and how to join . I'm sorry if this looks dumb but can't explain it well . I hope you guys know what i'm tryna say here . Thank you .