sinbad
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I'm not sure if there's something wrong with my love nature or not, however I don't really have a problem with it unless it's something that's "meant" to be fixed (e.g., prevent's the kundalini from being raised).
I've come to realise my definition of love is also different from other's. All this time I assumed it was synonymous with "connection".
I don't think men/women love in the same way generally, but I've never had the thought of receiving love from another person... I've only thought about receiving their respect and admiration, sexual desire towards me, and their affection/nurturing qualities, but not "unconditional love" which is something that seem's unrealistic and pointless to me.
I want companionship with a mentally, emotionally and sexually stimulating partner, and although I do care very deeply about those close to me, it's mostly in a detached way.
A "playmate", if you will.
Women have responded well to me for most of my life, at least on the short term, but I'm wondering am I missing out on something by not caring about deep love. I enjoy romance, but again, it's just sort of a playful dance/game to me, and not this passionate enmeshment that other's have and enjoy.
I don't really care about love, or know what it is, nor what to do with it if I did receive it anyway, but not in a pessimistic way. It's just my default mode. I have a really high sex drive though, and definitely seek out romance, so it's kind of weird dynamic.
I like to "play" (seduce) my partner's like a musical instrument and watch them react to me. I like to admire their positive qualities and be charmed by their conversation/humour, style/beauty etc.
But there is something missing I feel. I want it to be passionate, and yet retain that feeling of it being a game. But I grow bored of people quickly once I've figured them out. People make themselves too obvious and desperately blurt everything about themselves on Week 1. So there is no "story" to unravel, nothing to learn.
Will that "missing" piece be something which prevent's my kundalini? Or is this detachment okay?
It's a romantic type of detachment though, like Libra. But I'm confused why I feel a little empty, even though the ruler of Venus is Libra. Shouldn't love be more passionate? Something deep and transformative? Or at least thats what I always see described online.
The girl's seem to enjoy it, but there is something missing for me on my end, but I don't even know what it is or what to look for. There is just this feeling of vague emptiness, or maybe it's just "the grass is greener on the other side".
Or just someone who is equally good at/concerned with intelligent seduction as I am I think is what I want.
As long as it doesn't hinder my spiritual growth I don't really care too much anyway.
I've come to realise my definition of love is also different from other's. All this time I assumed it was synonymous with "connection".
I don't think men/women love in the same way generally, but I've never had the thought of receiving love from another person... I've only thought about receiving their respect and admiration, sexual desire towards me, and their affection/nurturing qualities, but not "unconditional love" which is something that seem's unrealistic and pointless to me.
I want companionship with a mentally, emotionally and sexually stimulating partner, and although I do care very deeply about those close to me, it's mostly in a detached way.
A "playmate", if you will.
Women have responded well to me for most of my life, at least on the short term, but I'm wondering am I missing out on something by not caring about deep love. I enjoy romance, but again, it's just sort of a playful dance/game to me, and not this passionate enmeshment that other's have and enjoy.
I don't really care about love, or know what it is, nor what to do with it if I did receive it anyway, but not in a pessimistic way. It's just my default mode. I have a really high sex drive though, and definitely seek out romance, so it's kind of weird dynamic.
I like to "play" (seduce) my partner's like a musical instrument and watch them react to me. I like to admire their positive qualities and be charmed by their conversation/humour, style/beauty etc.
But there is something missing I feel. I want it to be passionate, and yet retain that feeling of it being a game. But I grow bored of people quickly once I've figured them out. People make themselves too obvious and desperately blurt everything about themselves on Week 1. So there is no "story" to unravel, nothing to learn.
Will that "missing" piece be something which prevent's my kundalini? Or is this detachment okay?
It's a romantic type of detachment though, like Libra. But I'm confused why I feel a little empty, even though the ruler of Venus is Libra. Shouldn't love be more passionate? Something deep and transformative? Or at least thats what I always see described online.
The girl's seem to enjoy it, but there is something missing for me on my end, but I don't even know what it is or what to look for. There is just this feeling of vague emptiness, or maybe it's just "the grass is greener on the other side".
Or just someone who is equally good at/concerned with intelligent seduction as I am I think is what I want.
As long as it doesn't hinder my spiritual growth I don't really care too much anyway.
