There was a time [When i was a newbie] and i still am that i struggled to keep up. The hardest was from being a beginner in Spiritual Satanism. School, games, distraction, family those things are used against me every day. What i am doing is [Since i lack of earth, a lot] is breath in earth element every day. So i can stay more grounded to my meditations. There was a mediation that HoodedCobra put once about this but i do not really remember where and what was the title. IF i can find it, i will post the link or any one else please post the link of you know it.
And...Trust me, once i skipped my meditations i did not feel good at all. Listen to every one in here and their advise because if not, then you are going to learn the hard way.
And...Trust me, once i skipped my meditations i did not feel good at all. Listen to every one in here and their advise because if not, then you are going to learn the hard way.
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Yeah I'm now aware how stupid it is. Meditations are what going to save my ass but It's so hard to get on track.
I don't know something happened to me I just don't look at meditations anymore. I mean, I don't have the will to advance and evolve. I hope it's temporary because I do want to keep it up and meditate.
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Igor Bedzor <igorbedzor@ wrote:
Another thing, I'm not judging you or something but I HIGHLY doubt Satan
would incentivate a son of his to stop meditating.
This may be your subconscious looking for approval. Next time come forth
and be open about it, we are not some fucking christian retards. You can be
open about your problems, you don't have to indirectly ask for advice, come
forth and ask for it. We are all here to help
On Sun, Mar 10, 2013 at 6:55 PM, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@ wrote:
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Hailazazel, I am very suprised at your decision. If you stop now do you
really think life will get better? The depression will get worse because of
stopping your meditations. Also the planets namely mars and Saturn will get
to you and ruin you especially if you get a hard transit. Meditation and
aura of protection protects you from fate. If you stop now you willbe just
aother statistic. But its your choice. Good luck. Also you should have an
idea of what father Satan would say to you. Dissapointment completely. You
have chace to grow powerful and achieve godhead many gentiles will ot find
the truth. Consider yourself blessed and lucky. We all are. I thought you
were going to do a working to get rid of the depression?.
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On Sun, Mar 10, 2013 1:00 PM EDT keeperofstone wrote:
If that's your choice -So be it. Satanism is about free choice and
responsability. Many of us here have given you good advice and without
malice and yes life is a continuous test and adventure, make the best
decisions for yourself and by yourself - you are responsible.
Hail Satan
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hailazazel" <hailazazel@
wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly
person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@
wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people
that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends-
just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of
you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you
as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for
who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating
yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hailazazel" <hailazazel@
wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see
if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends
have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't
know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that
party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to
elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust
me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out
with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked
up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666"
<hoodedcobra666@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you
keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things
will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Don Danko <mageson6666@
wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
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From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Taking a break from meditations and
the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy
here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression
won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've
met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming
about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take
it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every
comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so
angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not
commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I
have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me
to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you
have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going
through.
I will be back