Alura
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hi guys! i want to tell you about this strange thing that is happening to me. i don’t really know what to do and maybe you can give me some advice
so... everything that i’m thinking of, for example, some scenarios in my everyday life can’t happen. it’s really weird, but let me explain. when i was planning travel with my friend, i started thinking about how will it be, my friend cancelled our plans. when i was hoping that in my new home i will start a „new life” everything is diffrent from my expectations. when i want to buy something and i’m sure i will get it, i simply can’t do it, for whatever reasons... etc. you can think that it’s nothing but i’m not exaggerating. nothing is how i planned in my mind. i know it’s happening for all of us sometimes, but i can’t think about a thing that happened how i was expecting. i can say that it’s a blessing sometimes actually... when i’m really scared of something i’m imagining this with every detail, i’m sure it won’t happen. and it works every time. but that thing is really problematic. i can’t dream about something because i realise that it will not happen because of my thoughts... i’m a type of person that always prefers loneliness, a person lost in her mind and who loves dreaming and making scenarios in her head and until lately it’s tiring. how to stop this?
i hope that you understand me. it’s a big deal for me, if it wasn’t, i wouldn’t post that there. I really tried to put it in words. this matter is a little embarrasing to me, because i write that down a hundreds of times, but it still sound stupid... please, don’t make fun of me.
anyways, i will appreciate your advice
so... everything that i’m thinking of, for example, some scenarios in my everyday life can’t happen. it’s really weird, but let me explain. when i was planning travel with my friend, i started thinking about how will it be, my friend cancelled our plans. when i was hoping that in my new home i will start a „new life” everything is diffrent from my expectations. when i want to buy something and i’m sure i will get it, i simply can’t do it, for whatever reasons... etc. you can think that it’s nothing but i’m not exaggerating. nothing is how i planned in my mind. i know it’s happening for all of us sometimes, but i can’t think about a thing that happened how i was expecting. i can say that it’s a blessing sometimes actually... when i’m really scared of something i’m imagining this with every detail, i’m sure it won’t happen. and it works every time. but that thing is really problematic. i can’t dream about something because i realise that it will not happen because of my thoughts... i’m a type of person that always prefers loneliness, a person lost in her mind and who loves dreaming and making scenarios in her head and until lately it’s tiring. how to stop this?
i hope that you understand me. it’s a big deal for me, if it wasn’t, i wouldn’t post that there. I really tried to put it in words. this matter is a little embarrasing to me, because i write that down a hundreds of times, but it still sound stupid... please, don’t make fun of me.
anyways, i will appreciate your advice