ChaosBringer666 said:
I'm used to type a lot in my answers so ..nope lol
Thanks for opening up, I still think you're the one ahead of me though. And whoa.. meet? When? How? In the astral? XD And nah, I don't care how old you are lol I'm friendly with everyone and if you're a Spiritual Satanist I'd be friends with you no matter what your age is.
Anyway.. yeah, drugs are just not going to really get you anywhere. Well.. kinda, I must say. I in no way suggest anyone uses them, especially when the most powerful drug is naturally produced by your pineal gland and is called Di-methyltryptamine (the spelling is probably fucked, just DMT then), but I must mention I did use drugs.. ONCE. January 2018. I had been trying over and over to get my astral senses open and working and was getting really down because I couldn't do this for the life of me, so when I had the chance to try this (a natural oil, nothing synthetic as I'm not going to BURN my brain) I took it.
Long story short: I ended up in a ..let's call it trance state? DEEP trance state? I found it impossible to stay awake, my mind was working in a way I'd never experienced, SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE, and when it bordered on scary I just went to sleep it off. The "dreams" I had were absurd and terrifying. In a few words, an unemotional enemy alien species had taken over our Planet and annihilated us, and our memories of our entire lifetimes where recorded in "filmstrips" for these aliens' amusement so they could experience an entire human life for the duration of maybe seconds. Something out of Black Mirror mate, it was frightening like nothing else. To witness your race's demise and demeaning... fuck, I never felt so scared in my life. The dreams wouldn't stop, they just kept coming. Some useful understanding came out of it at last, but it only involved powers I find "immoral", like erasing someone's mind in order to enslave them.. who the fuck would do that to a person?
So after hours of this, I FINALLY had the courage or strength to call SATANA (Italian for Satan.. wasn't speaking other tongues lol, I'm from Italy), and He came. Man, He was FANTASTIC. In my vision (and the year before when I called Him on Walpurgis Night) He looked like Shiva, the Hindu version. Completely surrounded by golden energy, so strong I could barely make out His perfect features.
He stayed with me, sitting with me and not saying a word for what I believe was maybe 15 minutes, until I could regain my mind back and the insanity was over. I even experienced what it's like to stare at the universe in the astral, the way it sounded like was something like N-N-N-N-N... peaceful and calming. The main color was orange, there were various geometric shapes (something that resembled Navajo textures) and I'm pretty sure this place is also a memory cuz I had thoughts like this when I was a child and loved remembering them. It's like this place was a safe haven to restore my sanity before waking up.
Never took anything else after that day.
The other time I could FEEL Satan more than seeing Him was after a 3 reps RTR like in February. About the same period I found my dominant element and decided I had to know more about Zeus. And then there was this Goddess.. Her I saw really clearly. I don't know who She was but She was the definition of Strength and Beauty together. Blonde, eyes that were probably green or blue or something between like aqua, and a white, kind of tight toga. She had a golden aura that was so dense it would spark like lightning. I never met her before or after but I'm thinking She could be high ranking. Maybe She has something to do with Zeus as well, I just felt Him there too somehow.
So.. did the drug help? I did see Satan. Am I ever going to do them again? FUCK NO! Can I see Satan again without drugs? FUCK YEAH, and more.
So you don't need drugs either.
(Now picture me with Enlil's angry face lol)
What you probably need is some method of yourself to focus... you say you see your succubus and Astaroth in your dreams, so I'm assuming your sleep state is one that creates the exact condition for your mind to relax and be receptive. Try to understand what triggers this state and eventually replicate it when you're fully awake, preferable sitting (so you won't fall asleep and possibly just sleep without meeting any Gods).
The day I saw Furfur (if that was really Her) I was half asleep and sitting, clearly needed sleep, but couldn't.. as I was at work lol, but for a moment I let go of thoughts for a bit, and bam.. She was there.
One guess is that we ALL have very different 'mind systems' so what will work for HP Maxine when she visualizes climbing down a ladder in the dark and then letting go of it, won't work for HP HoodedCobra who instead may need to think of a sinking feeling, or something else like it.
What I'm saying is, try different options. Drugs take you "there fast" but they do a lot more damage than if you did the work yourself with proper timing and effort. The greatest thing is, when you learn what works for you quickly and effectively you can work on making it last longer and replicate it at will anytime, even in the middle of a crowd shutting everyone else out.
Example: I'm trying to work on an astral projection technique that was somehow revealed to me lately. I was lying in bed and suddenly my center shifted and I felt out of balance. When it readjusted and I felt normal again I just realized it made me think of a fish swimming. So I started trying to feel like a fish swimming out of my body. No success yet, it's a work in progress, but for some reason I'm having random visions of fish and environments that look like a reef or an aquarium lol.. maybe I was a fish in another life and my soul hijacked this body... XD call me Nemo.