DarkPrince
New member
- Joined
- Jan 15, 2014
- Messages
- 70
Good night Brothers and Sisters, usually I don't ask for anyone's help, but I can't seem to figure this out... My life is getting out of control, I don't have time to do anything, I have to wake up 2 hours earlier to meditate, thats ok... but the problem is that I wake up, drink coffee so i don't fall asleep during the meditation, but something always happen to fuck my meditations, despite the fact that i barely have time to meditate, or to do anything, when I have some time, almost everytime, something comes up to fuck my meditation,sometimes i need to pee and even though i pee before meditation, it always comes to screw me up; most of the times i fall asleep even though i had drink coffee before; i cant visualize anything properly...
Ah and by the way, I started the spiritual warfare training program a few months ago, and i stagnated because im stuck in the visualization exercise because i can't visualize it not even for 5 lousy seconds! i would like to re.start it but i'm not sure if im gonna make it... because i don't think ill improve my meditations even if i had passed trough the exercises... or tried at least...
One more thing, I can't seem to control my powers, when i think something bad is going to happen, it does happen, but if i think something very good will happen, i may be thinking all day that nothing will happen...
I am sorry for my english and for the confusing text, and I sincerely ask for some advice... i can't get to any conclusions, even in the ritual of love for Father Enki... i couldnt do it already, i always fall asleep even though i drink plenty of coffee moments before i do it... (im doing it like meditation because i can't do the ritual, and i do my meditations lying in my bed)
Thanks!
Hail Satan!!
Ah and by the way, I started the spiritual warfare training program a few months ago, and i stagnated because im stuck in the visualization exercise because i can't visualize it not even for 5 lousy seconds! i would like to re.start it but i'm not sure if im gonna make it... because i don't think ill improve my meditations even if i had passed trough the exercises... or tried at least...
One more thing, I can't seem to control my powers, when i think something bad is going to happen, it does happen, but if i think something very good will happen, i may be thinking all day that nothing will happen...
I am sorry for my english and for the confusing text, and I sincerely ask for some advice... i can't get to any conclusions, even in the ritual of love for Father Enki... i couldnt do it already, i always fall asleep even though i drink plenty of coffee moments before i do it... (im doing it like meditation because i can't do the ritual, and i do my meditations lying in my bed)
Thanks!
Hail Satan!!