Hello everyone.
I have come here currently as an outsider, with two purposes.
First, I want to learn more than JOS.com has already given me. I want to learn scholarly about true Satanism both as a religion and as a practice, and to learn it's people.
Secondly, I come seeking answers. In my many years of searching for truth, identifying lies, and that which lies between, I have learned that no religion is completely unfounded. Each has a power, a truth, a valuable fragment within it, often surrounded by a murky swamp of no substance at best. I have studied many flavors of Xtianity, from Catholocism to Baptism to Mormonism, Penacostle to Judaism, Islam and more. I've studied with Voduisants and briefly joined a Buddhist temple. I've read up on The Dreaming and practiced Wicca. The list continues to go on for some time. Enough to fulfill the spiritual life of many, but not myself.
Now, my quest has brought me here, to you, and Satan. I come with an open mind and no prejudice I have not borne to any other religion. I am a faithful skeptic, quick to learn but careful in action.
If you'll have me, I will for the next several months listen, learn, and discuss. I can promise I will show the utmost respect to you, your beliefs, and your practices. And as I have with most of my journeys so far, I will likely incorporate much of your beliefs into my own. I can also promise that in dealing with others, I will give you a fair and unbiased review borne from knowledge shared. I hope that this will suffice.
What I would like to know first is actualization. Some religions (with the regrettable absence of any judeo-chrisian ones besides penacostle) can explain phenomenon I have independantly experienced and caused in my life, and these explanations have helped me shed light on it's nature.
So i'll begin with my first spiritual experience.
When I was rather young, I lead a somewhat turmoilant life, being an unusually early adopter of occultism in an adamantly baptist household. At eight, I had already come to question the christian God. In particular, I could not understand why the christian biblical 'Satan' would not be punished for tricking Eve, and yet Eve would be punished, as well as all of her children. This did not spell to me a 'kind and just' God as was claimed. It spelled to me a petty diety with anger management issues and a sadistic streak a mile long. And that's when my study began, in secret. I quickly became aware of a certain aura or individuality about myself vastly different from my peers, and a prejudice against me borne too fast to be explained by my appearance or attitude, however flawed those may have been. I came to interpret much of this as spiritual activity, and began to try various methods of cultivating it. I could feel it as a tangible, coursing force indescribeable in strength.
At the age of eleven was my first successful witnessed cultivation. I invited a friend into a dark room, not explaining what was to happen. I then 'conjured' (for lack of a better word) a palpable ball of incandescent gas. No words were said to him beforehand, because I wanted to know if it was in my mind or not. It was not, because he saw it clearly, asked and described it without urging. It was a considerable breakthrough for me.
And yet, I had never comitted to any religion.
There are countless more stories to tell of myself, those i've met, and that which i've encountered. But i'll let this rest for now, with a question.
What do you, as children of Satan, explain this phenomenon as? How should it be interpreted, and what does it mean?
I have come here currently as an outsider, with two purposes.
First, I want to learn more than JOS.com has already given me. I want to learn scholarly about true Satanism both as a religion and as a practice, and to learn it's people.
Secondly, I come seeking answers. In my many years of searching for truth, identifying lies, and that which lies between, I have learned that no religion is completely unfounded. Each has a power, a truth, a valuable fragment within it, often surrounded by a murky swamp of no substance at best. I have studied many flavors of Xtianity, from Catholocism to Baptism to Mormonism, Penacostle to Judaism, Islam and more. I've studied with Voduisants and briefly joined a Buddhist temple. I've read up on The Dreaming and practiced Wicca. The list continues to go on for some time. Enough to fulfill the spiritual life of many, but not myself.
Now, my quest has brought me here, to you, and Satan. I come with an open mind and no prejudice I have not borne to any other religion. I am a faithful skeptic, quick to learn but careful in action.
If you'll have me, I will for the next several months listen, learn, and discuss. I can promise I will show the utmost respect to you, your beliefs, and your practices. And as I have with most of my journeys so far, I will likely incorporate much of your beliefs into my own. I can also promise that in dealing with others, I will give you a fair and unbiased review borne from knowledge shared. I hope that this will suffice.
What I would like to know first is actualization. Some religions (with the regrettable absence of any judeo-chrisian ones besides penacostle) can explain phenomenon I have independantly experienced and caused in my life, and these explanations have helped me shed light on it's nature.
So i'll begin with my first spiritual experience.
When I was rather young, I lead a somewhat turmoilant life, being an unusually early adopter of occultism in an adamantly baptist household. At eight, I had already come to question the christian God. In particular, I could not understand why the christian biblical 'Satan' would not be punished for tricking Eve, and yet Eve would be punished, as well as all of her children. This did not spell to me a 'kind and just' God as was claimed. It spelled to me a petty diety with anger management issues and a sadistic streak a mile long. And that's when my study began, in secret. I quickly became aware of a certain aura or individuality about myself vastly different from my peers, and a prejudice against me borne too fast to be explained by my appearance or attitude, however flawed those may have been. I came to interpret much of this as spiritual activity, and began to try various methods of cultivating it. I could feel it as a tangible, coursing force indescribeable in strength.
At the age of eleven was my first successful witnessed cultivation. I invited a friend into a dark room, not explaining what was to happen. I then 'conjured' (for lack of a better word) a palpable ball of incandescent gas. No words were said to him beforehand, because I wanted to know if it was in my mind or not. It was not, because he saw it clearly, asked and described it without urging. It was a considerable breakthrough for me.
And yet, I had never comitted to any religion.
There are countless more stories to tell of myself, those i've met, and that which i've encountered. But i'll let this rest for now, with a question.
What do you, as children of Satan, explain this phenomenon as? How should it be interpreted, and what does it mean?
