SeguaceDiSatanas
Active member
- Joined
- Feb 19, 2021
- Messages
- 850
Both she and I have strong transits of Venus/Saturn and Saturn/Venus that are destroying the relationship. Before these transits it was the most beautiful relationship I had had in my life and I was truly happy and loved, she too with all my heart. Now the relationship has been ruined on both sides with the arrival of these transits. I swear it was something so beautiful, I have never had something so beautiful in my life, everything ruined with these transits which turned out to be very long.
Please, I ask you please, I really need to know if once these transits are over (in mid-September we will no longer have either of them) everything will return to how it was before. I would suffer less with the knowledge that bad luck is only temporary and soon everything will go back to the way it was at the beginning, I really miss those days. I also cry often. Sorry if I opened my heart in this topic, but Saturn really is terrible.
The only good thing about this Saturn is that through suffering it taught me that I have to take care of myself, but the rest is really only suffering for me and I have never been so bad in my life. I'll just tell you that I've never been able to cry, the only times I cry spontaneously are when I see animals or children feeling bad or being mistreated, but in this period I'm crying often and it's something that has never happened to me.
All I'm doing now is continuing to meditate, honor the Gods, strive to grow, and use spells to try to heal my life where I can.
Sorry for this topic, I hate playing the victim, don't take these words of mine for those of a sick idiot please, I hate showing myself so weak, just take them as a fact. It's a fact what I wrote to you, it transcends my emotions about it... thank you!
The reason why I suffer is that I never had "the good life", since I was little I was psychologically and physically abused in every way in every place I was, at home, at school, even when I went out strangers stopped me to laugh at me . Many people attacked me in different ways that I didn't deserve, and I always had to fight to defend myself and survive. For once I had something beautiful in my life that really made me happy, that too is disappearing... it takes very little for me to be happy, even someone who smiles at me and loves me. It doesn't take much for me because I haven't really had anything in my life and therefore I appreciate the value of small gestures. For once someone loved me and didn't attack me, hate me and abuse me, it ends like this? Please tell me if, at the end of these transits, things will return to how they were before... I simply saw what happiness looks like and now I want more. And as I write that I want more, there is some trauma inside me that makes me think: "you don't even deserve it, how dare you ask to be happy?"
Finally I would like to thank Father Satan, when I came to Satanism I did it with the idea that I wanted to learn true spirituality to be strong and I wanted a true Father. I didn't come to Satanism with the idea that "Satan would then give me the good life" like many do. If it weren't for Satan today, I probably wouldn't have the one thing that allows me to survive all this crap of adversity: spiritual strength and hope. Knowledge of my skills and how to apply them. Thank you Father Satan!
Please, I ask you please, I really need to know if once these transits are over (in mid-September we will no longer have either of them) everything will return to how it was before. I would suffer less with the knowledge that bad luck is only temporary and soon everything will go back to the way it was at the beginning, I really miss those days. I also cry often. Sorry if I opened my heart in this topic, but Saturn really is terrible.
The only good thing about this Saturn is that through suffering it taught me that I have to take care of myself, but the rest is really only suffering for me and I have never been so bad in my life. I'll just tell you that I've never been able to cry, the only times I cry spontaneously are when I see animals or children feeling bad or being mistreated, but in this period I'm crying often and it's something that has never happened to me.
All I'm doing now is continuing to meditate, honor the Gods, strive to grow, and use spells to try to heal my life where I can.
Sorry for this topic, I hate playing the victim, don't take these words of mine for those of a sick idiot please, I hate showing myself so weak, just take them as a fact. It's a fact what I wrote to you, it transcends my emotions about it... thank you!
The reason why I suffer is that I never had "the good life", since I was little I was psychologically and physically abused in every way in every place I was, at home, at school, even when I went out strangers stopped me to laugh at me . Many people attacked me in different ways that I didn't deserve, and I always had to fight to defend myself and survive. For once I had something beautiful in my life that really made me happy, that too is disappearing... it takes very little for me to be happy, even someone who smiles at me and loves me. It doesn't take much for me because I haven't really had anything in my life and therefore I appreciate the value of small gestures. For once someone loved me and didn't attack me, hate me and abuse me, it ends like this? Please tell me if, at the end of these transits, things will return to how they were before... I simply saw what happiness looks like and now I want more. And as I write that I want more, there is some trauma inside me that makes me think: "you don't even deserve it, how dare you ask to be happy?"
Finally I would like to thank Father Satan, when I came to Satanism I did it with the idea that I wanted to learn true spirituality to be strong and I wanted a true Father. I didn't come to Satanism with the idea that "Satan would then give me the good life" like many do. If it weren't for Satan today, I probably wouldn't have the one thing that allows me to survive all this crap of adversity: spiritual strength and hope. Knowledge of my skills and how to apply them. Thank you Father Satan!