Hopefully she wasn't the one. I would have other things to say, but I don't know the specifics of your situation.
I'm glad you were able to move on and start finding peace though.
I did many rituals, and working with the gods to find mine. I was with mine for quite some time. The greatest thing I've ever experienced. The gods certainly weren't lying when I've asked them 100s of times if she is truly who I am meant to be with.
Things happened that neither of us did intentionally or was out of our control. We unwillingly grew apart and separated.
I've been doing rituals near daily for almost half a year to rekindle with her and address issues within my grasp. It is working. Slowly.
We're talking again, we are saying we love each other again, and that we will be together again, and slowly processing what happened between us. But its far from what it once was, or what it will be. So its time for the next phase of my plan. To address the continuing circumstances that prevent us from being. Over my dead body will I fucking lose her again.
This process has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. But the seeds I am suffering to plant will grow, and The fruits of hardship bear the greatest rewards. Conversations with the gods have been favorable as far as how the outcome of this endeavor goes. But it ultimately depends on me, I fear I am not strong enough to see it through, but I will persist.