Dying will solve nothing (have personally considered suicide multiple occasions in my life, and I’m very young). This life, no matter you current condition, can be changed. Spiritual advancement of humanity is the true goal of Father Satan and you can’t do that if you die. But if you advance spiritually you will empower yourself to change your life, your fate. But if you die who knows what kind of life you will have next. Break the cycle, aim for spiritual perfection, for immortality and control your fate. Father Satan and the Demons will always be there for their people.
If you think it’s a psychic attack it probably is. If you need info on how to deal with it there are many ways. This banishing ritual is one.
http://www.angelfire.com/ empire/serpentis666/Banishing. html
Clean your aura regularly.
http://www.angelfire..com/ empire/serpentis666/Aura_ Cleaning.html
Meditation for protection.
http://www.angelfire.com/ empire/serpentis666/ Protection.html
If the attack is very strong summon your guardian demon. If you don’t know who it is yet you can try to find out or summon other demons who will help you get rid of the attack and even exact revenge.. The list of demons who can help you with enemy attacks is here
http://www.angelfire.com/ empire/serpentis666/HELP.html
Would hate to see a fellow satanist do something like that. All of us satanists should stick together and look out for each other while we take the enemy down effectively and become like gods ourselves. That is the true way we can show our love and dedication to father Satan.
Hail Father Satan