Hello,
It has been a while since I last asked a question. I am not sure if
anybody here can help me, but I will give you a brief run-down of my
situation.
If you don't remember, I wanted a bit of evidence before I dedicated. I
asked if I would be safe in summoning a Demon so I could ask my
questions directly; the answer came back that it was not a good idea to
summon without being dedicated, and instead I should do some
meditations, etc. I have been trying those, but with little result
(although I think I'm getting the hang of going into a trance finally).
But I am starting to think that it is not a lack of spiritual awareness
that is my problem here.
I am living with my Xian parents. My mom, especially, has been praying
for me and says she can feel a great negative energy around me. She says
she can see there is a battle, and much turmoil, inside and around me.
She is right. The last few weeks I have definitely felt a big change in
the energies around me, even though I have not summoned a Demon or
dedicated myself to Satan.
Now here's the first question. What gives my mom the ability to sense
the energies around me? Since she has this spiritual ability, it shows
me there must be some kind of power there. It's just that I experience
her energy as bad, and she experiences mine as bad.
My next question may present itself as thinly disguised impatience - and
I'll admit there is a bit of that involved. I am well-aware of the
spiritual battleground that is now my entire existence. I am tired of
the uncertainty and the tension. I do hate everything about Xianity, I
recognize it is full of lies and it's gotta be the most negative
influence ever to sully my life. I feel a strong kinship with Satanism
and I dream about the day I have power through Satan to take charge of
my own destiny without spiritual interference.
My problem is that I am so objective and un-biased in my search for
truth that I cannot put my trust in Satan without proof. My spiritual
sensitivity is not the issue - I know there is positive and negative
power all around me. I can feel them. Again, though, I am so un-biased
that I cannot identify which ones are positive and which ones are
negative! It's as if I am color-blinded. I would ask Satan for only a
small, paltry demonstration of his power. Would it be offensive to ask
him to give me a sign? I think that might be the only way I can have
knowledge. I want to see something happen - levitation, a piece of paper
burning, something! I want to ask Satan to prove his power to me so that
I can know what I am dedicating myself to. Surely he couldn't be
offended by my desire to be sincere in his service?
If this is a bad idea, is there a high priest or priestess that can
demonstrate their supernatural abilities? I'm asking somebody - whether
it is Satan himself or one of his children - to do what the Xians
cannot. My Xian parents believe a book that tells them they have the
power to eat poison and not die, walk through fires and not be burned,
etc etc etc. I don't believe in their book because they do not have that
power. But because I am un-biased, in my search for truth I hold
Satanism to the same standards. It is said on the JoS site that advanced
Satanists have telekinetic abilities and the ability to burn/freeze
objects.
I know Satan, his Demons, and his High Priests and Priestesses have
better things to do with their time than to indulge a skeptic's need for
proof. I'm very aware of that and that is why I am asking humbly for
this indulgence. I might add, though, that if I do get the proof I ask
for, I would be a great asset. And while I know Satan doesn't "need" me,
I think he would find me quite useful... I'd like to think of it as an
investment on your part to be patient with me and show me the proof I
ask for.
So what should I do? May I ask one of you High Priests/Priestesses to
demonstrate your power? Can/should I ask Satan directly?
Thanks for reading.
It has been a while since I last asked a question. I am not sure if
anybody here can help me, but I will give you a brief run-down of my
situation.
If you don't remember, I wanted a bit of evidence before I dedicated. I
asked if I would be safe in summoning a Demon so I could ask my
questions directly; the answer came back that it was not a good idea to
summon without being dedicated, and instead I should do some
meditations, etc. I have been trying those, but with little result
(although I think I'm getting the hang of going into a trance finally).
But I am starting to think that it is not a lack of spiritual awareness
that is my problem here.
I am living with my Xian parents. My mom, especially, has been praying
for me and says she can feel a great negative energy around me. She says
she can see there is a battle, and much turmoil, inside and around me.
She is right. The last few weeks I have definitely felt a big change in
the energies around me, even though I have not summoned a Demon or
dedicated myself to Satan.
Now here's the first question. What gives my mom the ability to sense
the energies around me? Since she has this spiritual ability, it shows
me there must be some kind of power there. It's just that I experience
her energy as bad, and she experiences mine as bad.
My next question may present itself as thinly disguised impatience - and
I'll admit there is a bit of that involved. I am well-aware of the
spiritual battleground that is now my entire existence. I am tired of
the uncertainty and the tension. I do hate everything about Xianity, I
recognize it is full of lies and it's gotta be the most negative
influence ever to sully my life. I feel a strong kinship with Satanism
and I dream about the day I have power through Satan to take charge of
my own destiny without spiritual interference.
My problem is that I am so objective and un-biased in my search for
truth that I cannot put my trust in Satan without proof. My spiritual
sensitivity is not the issue - I know there is positive and negative
power all around me. I can feel them. Again, though, I am so un-biased
that I cannot identify which ones are positive and which ones are
negative! It's as if I am color-blinded. I would ask Satan for only a
small, paltry demonstration of his power. Would it be offensive to ask
him to give me a sign? I think that might be the only way I can have
knowledge. I want to see something happen - levitation, a piece of paper
burning, something! I want to ask Satan to prove his power to me so that
I can know what I am dedicating myself to. Surely he couldn't be
offended by my desire to be sincere in his service?
If this is a bad idea, is there a high priest or priestess that can
demonstrate their supernatural abilities? I'm asking somebody - whether
it is Satan himself or one of his children - to do what the Xians
cannot. My Xian parents believe a book that tells them they have the
power to eat poison and not die, walk through fires and not be burned,
etc etc etc. I don't believe in their book because they do not have that
power. But because I am un-biased, in my search for truth I hold
Satanism to the same standards. It is said on the JoS site that advanced
Satanists have telekinetic abilities and the ability to burn/freeze
objects.
I know Satan, his Demons, and his High Priests and Priestesses have
better things to do with their time than to indulge a skeptic's need for
proof. I'm very aware of that and that is why I am asking humbly for
this indulgence. I might add, though, that if I do get the proof I ask
for, I would be a great asset. And while I know Satan doesn't "need" me,
I think he would find me quite useful... I'd like to think of it as an
investment on your part to be patient with me and show me the proof I
ask for.
So what should I do? May I ask one of you High Priests/Priestesses to
demonstrate your power? Can/should I ask Satan directly?
Thanks for reading.