Question regarding family member (father)

[JeraOpus]

While working on 6th chakra, crown, and with Thurisaz i got a very high high. When i did 60x Thurs on 6th chakra I noticed there was heat floating in that empty area and something sweet developed there.
After that i noticed that sweetness went down the throat. Then heart and then in the middle of chest.
After that i couldn't sit and had to lay down on bed it was an extremely blissful experience the songs i was listening to sounded very melodious.

Then after a few hours my dad came and started to touch me i told him not to. Then he started rubbing his head on right side of chest. Today he kissed my feet when i was laying down, my mother told him to not do that.
In childhood when we got a computer, He opened pornwebsite on it and asked me if he visited any website by mistake. And told me to stay away from females he drinks a lot of alcohol and fights un-necessary to show alpha nature but in reality he's a coward and tried to turn me into one (commanding me to touch the feet of every visitor we had in house) people enjoyed my company and he didn't like that. Once we going to home after a marriage of my another uncle. There were around 5 of us all male. He snatched my soda bottle and threw it i was under 15 at the time then he started serving the person driving car alcohol and was smiling like a retard.

He doesn't stop even after me trying to tell me straight. He keeps on repeating this behaviour everyday. They also sent me to a rehab even though i don't drink. I used to drink a few beer in university didn't drink more than 3 or 4 and even that was with a friend I don't know what to do at this point, When i get sensitive to meditation that retard is there to touch me or look at me and smile like a psycho I have a ********** urge towards him to be honest, I slapped him once when I was minding my own businesses and sitting on a chair in our farm house of my grandfather, He came and started touching me.

I was earing money since I was 16 years old to leave the home but when he came to know about it he asked me where did i get the money in bank ( I was doing content writing work on a forum, companies pay there to put signature under the profile and post)

When he came to know about it he started crying on video call and i was disgusted by his behavior then instantly ended the call, he also emotionally, mentally tortured me once i had a blackout and mother had to step in to stop him.
I am getting the thoughts of ********** him then again i will goto jail after it but everytime he does it that ********** urge increases. I can't fight him like i have mentioned before my kundalini went down and my energies are in Ida nadi now (I made a thread about it when i joined the forum) I am in a really messed up position. I am thinking about going to himalayas. Leaving the home since my analytical brain isn't function properly and I am noting more than a corpse anymore, Also getting the thoughts of Commiting the suicide the I read about the post of Hs666 and read though the article of what happens when someone commits suicide and so that's not an option either since i will get into similar position in the next life and who knows if i will ever get the knowledge to advance in that lifetime. And what if i was born in a Christian or Islam family life would be rigged even then. I am from Aryan race.

 

[JeraOpus]

Not to mentioned he also said "People like me become ********** because I didn't took abuse in my childhood and had fights with others" But after that thought he implanted in me I became scared of myself and there was a time a guy slapped me and I didn't do anything in school after that he and his friends started beating me on the gound this is when i was in 10th standard.
And during meditation that thought of his scares and makes me think " I am a danger " He manipulates and likes to control everyone around him and whom he can't spread rumors about them behind them.

 

[serpentwalker666]

This is a very serious and a critical situation. I would advise you to curse your father and cut his influence out of your life.

Ask Father Satan to help you with this and make sure you usher justice onto this man for viciously abusing you for years.

Do not wait, set this in motion. You must seek justice in this case as these are serious offenses. I would also seek legal action on top of this if this still going on.

I am so sorry this has happened to you, we are all here for you. Father Satan is there for you as well.

 

[JeraOpus]

This is a very serious and a critical situation. I would advise you to curse your father and cut his influence out of your life.

Ask Father Satan to help you with this and make sure you usher justice onto this man for viciously abusing you for years.

Do not wait, set this in motion. You must seek justice in this case as these are serious offenses. I would also seek legal action on top of this if this still going on.

I am so sorry this has happened to you, we are all here for you. Father Satan is there for you as well.

I filed a case against him 2 years ago but he had connections in the male department of police station. Female police constable took the report after my intent was known to her through my little energy left in Heart chakra, I shouted at my father in police station when I begged me to come home.
And after coming home there was no sign of embarrassment on his face he was just mad at me but also scared.

He continued his behavior of getting close to me then i had to call a Cop. The cop came to the house i told him what's the matter not in detail but i said "I don't want to live with my father anymore" there a croud gathered of locals and ( My father and grandfather) started telling him I am mentally ill and I am under the effect of meds. I went inside home and to the second floor (we live at rent on the s second floor) And while Cop was telling my father and grandfather to keep a tight hold on me ( I was watching and listening them from top) Then i said to the cops ( There was 2 that came on the bike ) You can come to our home for tea. He got in panic and said his partner lives very far from here and it's night so we have to leave.
I told them i want to leave tomorrow. The cop said ok i will help you, My father started making a dirty face and got scared he said no, The cop said if he wants to leave tomorrow then he will and I will help him.

The next day i packed my bag to leave to a place ( I had cash enough to survive for a few years ) my uncles arrived and told me to go with them, it was around 1-2 Am. I pulled out my phone and tried to call the Cop he snatched my phone and by force took me to the farmhouse.
They locked me in a room there and somehow I cooled there, like I said I can't use force since there's little energy in my solar plexus which is connected to left nadi or the middle( I am not sure about it)

 

[Isisd]

While working on 6th chakra, crown, and with Thurisaz i got a very high high. When i did 60x Thurs on 6th chakra I noticed there was heat floating in that empty area and something sweet developed there.
After that i noticed that sweetness went down the throat. Then heart and then in the middle of chest.
After that i couldn't sit and had to lay down on bed it was an extremely blissful experience the songs i was listening to sounded very melodious.

Then after a few hours my dad came and started to touch me i told him not to. Then he started rubbing his head on right side of chest. Today he kissed my feet when i was laying down, my mother told him to not do that.
In childhood when we got a computer, He opened pornwebsite on it and asked me if he visited any website by mistake. And told me to stay away from females he drinks a lot of alcohol and fights un-necessary to show alpha nature but in reality he's a coward and tried to turn me into one (commanding me to touch the feet of every visitor we had in house) people enjoyed my company and he didn't like that. Once we going to home after a marriage of my another uncle. There were around 5 of us all male. He snatched my soda bottle and threw it i was under 15 at the time then he started serving the person driving car alcohol and was smiling like a retard.

He doesn't stop even after me trying to tell me straight. He keeps on repeating this behaviour everyday. They also sent me to a rehab even though i don't drink. I used to drink a few beer in university didn't drink more than 3 or 4 and even that was with a friend I don't know what to do at this point, When i get sensitive to meditation that retard is there to touch me or look at me and smile like a psycho I have a ********** urge towards him to be honest, I slapped him once when I was minding my own businesses and sitting on a chair in our farm house of my grandfather, He came and started touching me.

I was earing money since I was 16 years old to leave the home but when he came to know about it he asked me where did i get the money in bank ( I was doing content writing work on a forum, companies pay there to put signature under the profile and post)

When he came to know about it he started crying on video call and i was disgusted by his behavior then instantly ended the call, he also emotionally, mentally tortured me once i had a blackout and mother had to step in to stop him.
I am getting the thoughts of ********** him then again i will goto jail after it but everytime he does it that ********** urge increases. I can't fight him like i have mentioned before my kundalini went down and my energies are in Ida nadi now (I made a thread about it when i joined the forum) I am in a really messed up position. I am thinking about going to himalayas. Leaving the home since my analytical brain isn't function properly and I am noting more than a corpse anymore, Also getting the thoughts of Commiting the suicide the I read about the post of Hs666 and read though the article of what happens when someone commits suicide and so that's not an option either since i will get into similar position in the next life and who knows if i will ever get the knowledge to advance in that lifetime. And what if i was born in a Christian or Islam family life would be rigged even then. I am from Aryan race.

I feel sick in my stomach. Curse him, chthonic deities can help you take care of him. You're so strong, we are here for you

 

[serpentwalker666]

I filed a case against him 2 years ago but he had connections in the male department of police station. Female police constable took the report after my intent was known to her through my little energy left in Heart chakra, I shouted at my father in police station when I begged me to come home.
And after coming home there was no sign of embarrassment on his face he was just mad at me but also scared.

He continued his behavior of getting close to me then i had to call a Cop. The cop came to the house i told him what's the matter not in detail but i said "I don't want to live with my father anymore" there a croud gathered of locals and ( My father and grandfather) started telling him I am mentally ill and I am under the effect of meds. I went inside home and to the second floor (we live at rent on the s second floor) And while Cop was telling my father and grandfather to keep a tight hold on me ( I was watching and listening them from top) Then i said to the cops ( There was 2 that came on the bike ) You can come to our home for tea. He got in panic and said his partner lives very far from here and it's night so we have to leave.
I told them i want to leave tomorrow. The cop said ok i will help you, My father started making a dirty face and got scared he said no, The cop said if he wants to leave tomorrow then he will and I will help him.

The next day i packed my bag to leave to a place ( I had cash enough to survive for a few years ) my uncles arrived and told me to go with them, it was around 1-2 Am. I pulled out my phone and tried to call the Cop he snatched my phone and by force took me to the farmhouse.
They locked me in a room there and somehow I cooled there, like I said I can't use force since there's little energy in my solar plexus which is connected to left nadi or the middle( I am not sure about it)

Do what you can to communicate with Satan and your guardian demon and move forward in their guidance for getting in better circumstances. I know all too well what it's like to deal with abuse, violence and family related issues.

In the circumstances and people you describe here.. DO NOT ENDURE THIS ABUSE, YOU MUST GET AWAY.

With problematic family members and issues of this nature, it can be really hard to get yourself financially and mentally together. But it MUST BE DONE.

Satan and your guardian demon will help you.

 

[JeraOpus]

I feel sick in my stomach. Curse him, chthonic deities can help you take care of him. You're so strong, we are here for you

When i think about hurting someone i feel the pain of causing harm to others and it's really a deep one.
Now again I think if he didn't do that then I wouldn't have tried to do things on my own if everything was served to me on a plate. I wouldn't have searched about how to make money if he gave me all of it and spoied me and I wouldn't have searched about meditations to get rid of pain I have received and maybe or haven't known about JoS. It's as if everything in life is planned and the weak have no place to live unless they make themselves strong, mentally and physically.

There's an alien overlord living in Alaskan black pyramid who I am sure has an army of powerful aliens who have supernatural powers and american military guarding that place his Crown chakra and 6th chakra (if it's there unlike jews) then he's very powerful getting to the place where he is must have been very hard for him too, I am sure not everything was served to that entity (They are indeed anti-humanity).
But not to fear there we have Kailash mountain abode of shiva (Suspected to be pyramid by russian scientists) There are people living there who are aged over 300 years. They have spiritual knowledge there and Good aliens are seen there who help humans to rise their consciousness through squares or other ways ( I am not totally sure about it ). I am also sure there are people or aliens controlling the perception of certain countries to prevent certain beliefs from spread in those countries. I think those are China, Russia and North Korea they have bad reputation of dictatorship but without it those places would have collapsed by now. Control is necessary at least till there spiritual warfare going on. Gods are playing a game on earth for their entertainment.

Now again when i think about my father I think there had been both good and bad impression on me sometime i want to hurt him and sometime love him based on which chakra of mine is more dominant at that time and causing one action will impant certain memory in a chakra and that'll be another mess to deal with. It's really messed up and I think there's hardly any control in my hands.