Hi, I have some questions about my spiritual path.
I am an SS for years and I had spiritual experiences since I was a child. However there is a problem which makes me really sad. When I first started meditating, I immediately felt its effects and since last year I have been having the symptoms of kundalini awakening. I had a huge pain on my spine which sometimes happened during my sleep, as if something was climbing up. Also I sometimes have pain in my back, especially heart area. Besides, sometimes when I wish for something, it happens and I think it is because of the kundalini.
Nevertheless I feel like my work does not help me to fully awaken my kundalini. Normally I saw people who had these symptoms and they experienced the awakening, but I feel like I am stuck. Since I had the symptoms, my point of view towards life changed drastically and it made me a bit apathetic (positively) to some events. So it really changed me but the fact that I am unable to awaken it makes me feel incompetent. My close friend whose kundalini is awaken is telling me that the meditations I am doing are normally enough and I should be patient. But I am not trying to make things happen rapidly, I just feel like I am stuck and sometimes I ask myself what if I cannot achive my goal for years and keep having these symptoms even though I try my best?
If you ask me about my meditation routine, I have almost never stopped it except when I was severely sick etc. I just want to know what I am doing wrong or if my meditation program is enough.
Apart from yogas, AoP and cleansing, I have Raum Meditation, FCM x2, Spinning, MerKaBa, Ptah, Thaum for 3rd eye, and Isis for senses. I am not sure if this is enough or should I add more?
I would be really happy if any experienced of you advice me.
I am an SS for years and I had spiritual experiences since I was a child. However there is a problem which makes me really sad. When I first started meditating, I immediately felt its effects and since last year I have been having the symptoms of kundalini awakening. I had a huge pain on my spine which sometimes happened during my sleep, as if something was climbing up. Also I sometimes have pain in my back, especially heart area. Besides, sometimes when I wish for something, it happens and I think it is because of the kundalini.
Nevertheless I feel like my work does not help me to fully awaken my kundalini. Normally I saw people who had these symptoms and they experienced the awakening, but I feel like I am stuck. Since I had the symptoms, my point of view towards life changed drastically and it made me a bit apathetic (positively) to some events. So it really changed me but the fact that I am unable to awaken it makes me feel incompetent. My close friend whose kundalini is awaken is telling me that the meditations I am doing are normally enough and I should be patient. But I am not trying to make things happen rapidly, I just feel like I am stuck and sometimes I ask myself what if I cannot achive my goal for years and keep having these symptoms even though I try my best?
If you ask me about my meditation routine, I have almost never stopped it except when I was severely sick etc. I just want to know what I am doing wrong or if my meditation program is enough.
Apart from yogas, AoP and cleansing, I have Raum Meditation, FCM x2, Spinning, MerKaBa, Ptah, Thaum for 3rd eye, and Isis for senses. I am not sure if this is enough or should I add more?
I would be really happy if any experienced of you advice me.