If you are than this is a question you should be asking yourself.
If you aren't then the question isn't worthy of your interest.
Bringing this thought form to the forums could be done disingenuously in an effort to validate said thought form into one of the few places on the planet to see through the garbage that is the abrahamics.
This isn't the first time you've asked this question here.
Perhaps it's time to move forward and away from from this line of curiosity and engage in self progression towards the Gods and step into Father Satan Lucifers light.