AskSatanOperator
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Ever since I was young I have liked the thought of people pitying me. I often catch myself daydreaming of having an accident or something bad happening to me,and then discussing it to others who feel sorry for me or want to help.
I know this is a self-destructive mentality as when I actually had problems with money, I felt an inner satisfaction when my friends saw me not buying something because I didn't have money. (I told them things are a bit difficult for me)
How can I deal with this? I feel like my magic goes wasted if I subconsciously want to suffer.
I know this is a self-destructive mentality as when I actually had problems with money, I felt an inner satisfaction when my friends saw me not buying something because I didn't have money. (I told them things are a bit difficult for me)
How can I deal with this? I feel like my magic goes wasted if I subconsciously want to suffer.