Question #5214: Spiritual development stuckness

[AskSatanOperator]

Greetings.

My question is, what level of spiritual development is required for the Returning curses 1, 2?

I mean, I feel my meditation skills are very weak (visualization, energy perception, trance etc.).

I'm doing the Joy_of_Satan_Ministries_Meditation_Program_40_day but my visualization is so incredibly weak, but my concentration skills in general.I can't concentrate for almost half a minute without distracting thoughts and I feel so heavy visualization feels like it's tearing me apart because I'm so overwhelmed. For example, the estimated time for the first three days of aura clearing, protective meditation and empty meditation is 2 minutes, but for me just the aura clearing takes 15 minutes, especially by the time I run through my chakras (or try to).I can't even see my chakras by themselves for example, I just visualize from memory.
Anyway, I have tried many times with meditations, but simply no matter how long and persistently I tried to do it, somehow I could never get into it and improve.For example, for 1 month I just visualized the first image from the 6 months training, but I still didn't improve my visualization to the point that I could hold the image longer or without distracting thoughts.1 I noticed after 1 month that I hadn't made any progress with the visualization.I also stayed with just visualizing this image for so long because I felt it wasn't development, but that after 1 month I still...

But I still do rituals and participate in warfare.I also participate in rtrs and rituals because at least they don't require visualization and energy perception.

 

[Draconi666]

Greetings.

My question is, what level of spiritual development is required for the Returning curses 1, 2?

I mean, I feel my meditation skills are very weak (visualization, energy perception, trance etc.).

I'm doing the Joy_of_Satan_Ministries_Meditation_Program_40_day but my visualization is so incredibly weak, but my concentration skills in general.I can't concentrate for almost half a minute without distracting thoughts and I feel so heavy visualization feels like it's tearing me apart because I'm so overwhelmed. For example, the estimated time for the first three days of aura clearing, protective meditation and empty meditation is 2 minutes, but for me just the aura clearing takes 15 minutes, especially by the time I run through my chakras (or try to).I can't even see my chakras by themselves for example, I just visualize from memory.
Anyway, I have tried many times with meditations, but simply no matter how long and persistently I tried to do it, somehow I could never get into it and improve.For example, for 1 month I just visualized the first image from the 6 months training, but I still didn't improve my visualization to the point that I could hold the image longer or without distracting thoughts.1 I noticed after 1 month that I hadn't made any progress with the visualization.I also stayed with just visualizing this image for so long because I felt it wasn't development, but that after 1 month I still...

But I still do rituals and participate in warfare.I also participate in rtrs and rituals because at least they don't require visualization and energy perception.

its better for you focus on complete basic things and get better in these.

Advance in void meditation, basic breathing exercises and hatha yoga. You can do alternate nostril breath, vibrate Aum and etc. So Focus on balancing yourself, you need to have clear stable and able mind for advancig further or even doing returning curses.

When we do returning curses especially, you need to be good in void and more stable, because this is cleaning.

In process of cleaning shit will come out and you will want to handle it. So better focus on very basic things, stilling the mind and etc.

Have you tried flame meditation? This is very powerful and gives fast results and speeds up progress with void meditation because it helps to penetrate through thoughts and emotions. And it is very short like 6 minutes in total.

 

[Henu the Great]

Returning curses one and two are beginner practices that one should begin as soon as possible especially when there are spiritual problems that manifest in their life.

As skills develop, so does the efficacy of methods used, including these beginner-level type of practices. Lack of skill is hardly a good reason to avoid cleaning and protection methods considering the "spiritual climate" of these days.

Most of the practices listed in the beginner section of meditations in the JoS are recommended to include in the daily practice. It is noteworthy that new people get accustomed to these practices in a manner that helps them grow safely by not overdoing things--by starting with smaller amount of time spent for each thing. Over time, more things can be done with more time spent doing raising more energy.

 

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