Can you explain this part? You have had similar messages before and I have been thinking about it for days, but I still haven't reached the "Aha!" moment.
I believe I have experienced this on a mental level. For example, you start a spell to fix a situation, then that spell pushes you into an altered state of mind where you will suffer or learn something, and with the accumulated energies, you rise to a position where you can make that thing happen. I have experienced and continue to experience similar things. There are squares and spells that I actively do. I think this is also a bit of a Saturn way, it is a common situation for me, but I am not sure if it applies to everyone in general.
I also make transformational squares that require me to have this kind of experience, I even combine them, but I can say that I don't really feel that way. On the contrary, as soon as the squares were finished, my soul wanted them even more. Maybe I cannot position it in my head because I cannot fully grasp the dynamics in the background.