Hey I really want to feel Satan but I cant.I make a lot of bad decisions everyday and I think it might be the reason why I cant feel Satan
I feel guilty for the things Ive done I need someone to seriously help me Im really sad for my mistakes .Ive never felt so godless and alone left by God
These feelings of guilt, godless and making assumptions about your behaviour that it is bad and etc.,
Only makes you to be closing towards Satan.
You should approach this differently.
Better not to create opinions about your actions which creates walls in your mind.
But in opposite you need to be more open, openness is key for it.
Meditate and work upon opening your mind to reality, like deprogramming, meditate and etc.,
And Gods will be more easy to help you, when you are more open.
This is not short way, but gradual, efforts and patience requiring path.
You can see mistakes as fuel for becoming better yourselfso it is not negative if approached right way,
Try to not invest negative emotions in what life throws at you, but use it, this is what makes us more open to Gods, working and overcoming obstacles, by doing that growing and becoming more conscious, this grows us in becoming more close to them.