AskSatanOperator
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I've read a thread recenty about twins, and it made me think about my own experiences, and the reasons and karmic patterns behind it. I was born preterm, alongside my twin brother (we weren't identical twins). It'd be called extremely preterm even by today's standards, but back then it was a more serious matter because there wasn't as much care and treatment available than nowadays. Both of us had multiple complications and problems during and after birth, our bodies and organs weren't developed enough to work on their own, and it was highly questionable if we would survive - and at what cost. Doctors said there wasn't a chance that we would turn out healthy even if we made it out, they said even in the best scenario both of us would be mentally challenged in a severe way alonside some psychical complications. My brother was a lot more smaller than me, and unfortunately he had passed away as an infant. I miracliously survived, without any type of long-term health problems. I didn't knew about his existence until I was a teen, when my mom told me what truly happened. I thought about him a lot back then, thinking where he is, or if he's watching me from above or something. I didn't knew the truth about the afterlife back then. After I became an SS and learned about reincarnation I always wondered if he reincarnated since then, and where he is if he did, how he's doing, things like that. I also wondered the reasons why we were born prematurely and why he had passed away that day. I know it must be something to do with both his and my karma, but it's so messed up that karma manifested this way, killing him even before he had a chance to live in this life. Years ago, I casted a birth chart for him after I got his exact birth time. It was just a few minutes difference compared to me, his placements and aspects were extremely similar to mine with only a little bit of differences. I already had numerous malicious influences in my chart which manifested during and right after my birth, yet for him this few minutes difference made these influences even more stronger and severe. I think this could be part of the reason why he passed away then. The events were heavily influenced by both our Saturn and True Node, which made me think it was already fated to happen, and was a result of karma. My heart has stopped once as well, but the doctors managed to successfully resurrect me. I never really met with someone who would be even remotely similar to me in terms of personality and soul, and the thought that there are one person out there who is really similar to me and shares a bond/connection with me made me think about him a lot. I also thought about our karma, or to be more exact the karmic patterns that lead to these events to happen. I thought that I understand karma pretty well. For example one person who becomes a heroin addict in one of his life is prone to return to his old habbits in his future lives, the addiction and the behaviour itself will get imprinted and engraved into his soul, even if he won't remember the reasons why. If you always use one path to walk through, it'II become familiar to you and you'II keep walking on it. The further you go, the easier the path gets but the harder it is to turn away or switch to another path, even if said path leads to doom. This is a completely understandable and logical approach to how karma works, altough I fail to implement it in this case. I can't really think about one scenario or karmic pattern which would lead to someone being born preterm, or prematurely passing away in one of his lives. I just can't understand it. Maybe I'm just overcomplicating it, and it's part of the universe and life. I wondered if I'd see him in the future, let it be in this life or in another one. I assume he's more than likely reincarnated since then, many years have passed after all but I'm not that sure about this. I really hope he'II become or became an SS if he did. I wonder, if there is a way I could "check" on him? Not neccecarily find or see him, but to know if he's doing alright, or to know if he truly reincarnated or not.
Hail Satan!
Hail Satan!