AskSatanOperator
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I'm 22 years old and I'm at a very complicated stage in my life, I suffer from anxiety and possibly depression, I'm undergoing treatment and I met JOS through someone I no longer have contact with. I confess that at first I thought it was absurd when I was finding out about Satan, even more so because at the time I considered myself a Christian. But nowadays, I no longer consider myself a Christian, and in fact I am angry at Christianity. Today I have a huge interest in Satan, and I'm still reading about the site and getting to know him, but I also confess that there's a part of me that has anxiety because of doubt, because that part of me, even though I feel angry, still wants to believe in Christianity. I feel like it's still rooted inside, as if saying "if you follow this path, you'll end up in hell". In this case, in Christian hell. I also want to say that I have tried to pray a few times, I have already prayed. But I don't feel anything. I would like to feel it, but unfortunately I don't feel anything. When I was a Christian, I felt something. Perhaps this is also why I have doubts about dedicating my soul to Satan. I've tried meditating a few times, but I've never managed to persist. Sometimes I think that if I dedicated myself, my life would improve, or Satan would touch me, something like that. I've been thinking about dedicating my soul to him for some time, but I'm afraid. Today something happened that made me very sad, and I suddenly thought about dedicating my soul to him, but I don't want to do it because of some freak out or something like that. I would like to dedicate my soul to him, but would there be any problem if I did so even if I had doubts? I don't want to do something wrong in relation to Satan, especially because I have some bad thoughts, which say that I have already started wrong with him.
Could you guide me?
Could you guide me?