Question #4156: I need advice, I don't know what to do

[AskSatanOperator]

Where to start, I love the Gods from the bottom of my soul, I love all the content that joy of satan has stored and I probably won't know how to express myself properly, I think what I feel can't be conveyed in words

I've been away from joy of satan for a long time, looking for other religions like wicca, hinduism and other pagan religions.
I left the joy of satan because since the pandemic ended everything started to go wrong, I couldn't maintain a meditation routine, and I ended up leaving because of my failure, I tried to look for other Gods besides the demons and I didn't find anything, nor did I feel anything like the demons of the joy of satan, I tried to go back once but I think the Gods gave up on me, anyway, I love the Gods, I'd like to go back to them but I don't know if I'll be received again, besides, it's very difficult to be from the joy of satan, it's really not easy, we can't have "sanctuaries" out in the open, we can't say who we are to others, I don't have contact with any satanists apart from those on this forum, it's lonely, modern witches have their covens and shrines, Christians have their churches, Buddhists have their temples .. I can't say anything to anyone or else they'll think I'm crazy, on the internet itself we're a laughing stock, and if we try to say something we're even more ridiculed, even if we're right. I don't know if I've come close to writing what I feel, I'm very confused about the world, I just wish I could go back to the way I was before.

 

[Osiris]

Gods do not give up on you. Only you can give yourself up. I think you can try some rune to find you suitable friends. If you feel too heavy for your all the confusions, do a standard ritual to vent. But after all, you have to work on yourself. No one can meditate for you. You probably are not grounded enough. NAUTHIZ can help. [SIZE=4][B]Blitzkreig [JG][/B][/SIZE] has very good post about it.

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[Recycler1337]

If you have done the initiation, the bond is not broken.

You were just searching, you had a difficult period.

If you have not worked against our Gods and our side in any way, there will be no problems.

Come back and join the common rituals if you wish, so you will help yourself and all of us.

 

[NetemPtah]

Satanism sows in your being the most authentic ways of your soul. Everything that is beyond your intent does not concern you; even ethics, the social action most consistent with satanic ethics, which is originally sown in your soul, concerns only your intent and your soul, and its logical and mental realization is only resulting from your work on your soul.

Satanism is neither an easy nor difficult path; it is a path of pure and sublime glory.

To achieve such glory, it is necessary to free yourself from everything that is not originally present in you, therefore from every illusion. Breaking the illusions is a war that we are preparing to conquer; war cannot be suffering if its goal, the glorious conquest, is sublime. It's transformation.

This transformation can only happen through your intimate intent, and your intimate intellectual freedom; this is just your war.

Groups are only useful for transmitting this message on a large scale; but the transformation is yours alone.

Bloom, do not be sad about your sublime and glorious work.
Bloom, conquer yourself.
It's the Only Way.