Few advises:
-If you have any question, search for keywords
In the forums search
https://ancient-forums.com/search.php
In the Library
https://satanslibrary.org/
Or in the Wiki
https://joswiki.org/index.php/Main_Page
(a whole FAQ project here
https://joswiki.org/index.php/Omni_Repository
-Don't tell anyone that you are a Satanist because you don't know the consequences. Only tell someone who is open for these subjets, and most importantly, will not tell anyone and you can 100% trust them. (This is almost non-existent, so really, just don't tell anyone).
-Be persistent
The thing is with spirituality is that you will have even slower results than in the gym. Patients, knowledge, and rational thinking are the key.
Other than that, experiment with beginner meditations, and start a program if you think you will be able to meditate every day, have faith in yourself. https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=93074&p=481174https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=93074&p=481174https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=93074&p=481174https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=93074&p=481174https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=93074&p=481174.