Question #3587: Fucked up big time

[AskSatanOperator]

I made horrible decisions years ago that I am ashamed of. I was in a relationship with a jew. I was weak and worthless and lonely and thought maybe he would be the exception because he was one of the few people in my life showing me kindness. Of course not. I lost faith and started thinking i was crazy for ever believing in spiritual satanism. After ruining my life, I was drawn back to Satanism again and decided to start doing rtrs again and would like to know where to go from here. Can I rid this filth from my aura? Is it even possible? I hate myself with good reason. I have been doing rtrs for years after all of this happened. Can I keep doing rtrs and meditating? I severely regret my actions.

 

[Aquarius]

Hating yourself won't bring you anywhere, stop that, you made a mistake, now you're back on your feet and eager to advance, that's all that counts.

Start with the 40 days program and learn a lot from the JoS websites.

 

[HPS Lydia]

I've heard of other SS doing the same thing, so don't think it's just you.

Clean your chakras thoroughly, especially your sacral, heart/center, and throat. Do detaching from him if you haven't already. Keep up with the RTRs and God Rituals, work on advancing and strengthening yourself and you'll be fine