Aquarius said:
You literally don't need the Merkaba, you are still a beginner and aren't clean. You don't want the Merkaba amplifying the dirt in your soul or what you attract. You should do the Merkaba when you are clean and have advanced over a certain limit.
And? Lots of people do the MerKaBa and they aren't virgin clean or advanced. Remember the Yahoo forums over time people would ask about MerKaBa. Your basically stating don't do it your not advanced, and?
I've been doing it, so what?
It's not like anything bad has happened or anything. My affirmation is, x8 "My energy field is fully vibrating at the speed of light, now and forever, in a fully positive, healthy, and best way for me".
I've been cleaning in fact ever since the year started I've been purifying using Witches Sabbath. Thanks to Lydia for telling me I can do it every Friday-Saturday for 1 day general cleaning as long as it's not the VoC.
I don't know why your telling me this. I don't feel anything, hell I don't even know if it works. It could just be mental exercises that is just me thinking. You think I void or trance hell no impossible for me.
It's why I prefer physical exercises but even physical exercises like Yoga require void/trance. So I'm just there thinking and contemplating and doing my meditation.
I feel good these past few weeks doing my meditation schedule. Can't you just be happy I'm meditating.
And besides if your worried about negative energy, I think you should have said more worried about negative karma or dross in my Nadis.
I've been at this since 2016 and in 2018 with Returning Curses Pt.1. In other words over the past nearly 7 years I've been at some or other point on and off cleaning and protecting.
I think it's time we settle the elephant in the room and go further. I don't know why your criticizing me. Other people have done worse even doing full blown rituals and spells for something stupid.
I understand your concerned but let me experience my negativity if need be. Besides my entire life is negative and worthless as I hate life. Lately I've been happier and less negative and not even saying if at all I haven't said in a while life is a worthless piece of shit or life sucks or life is so boring.
I've just been listening to my friend state take motivation and discipline as I do like Black Metal. Exercising as he bodybuilds is boring and it's not gonna improve your life or get you laid or do anything. But like Black metal you do it and you just carry on. He loves exercising he's a Saturnian machine at it. But like he said it's completely despondent and negative but your so concerned about the weight your holding on to that those thoughts vaporize and you focus on the drudgery of lifting the weights.
Hell if my mind is coming up with manifestations or I'm meditating incorrectly hell it probably doesn't work. IF anything I'm wasting my time being in the occult as it's a bunch of non-sense. But the occult is real and apparently there is millions of people around the World following this stuff in all kinds of places.
Yes I know I can't void, I can't trance. My mind has a superabundant amount of mental chatter and energy I'm like a machine. No idea what a low air element does hell what if I had a high air element who knows. But all I know is it works; it works do it, it doesn't work; it doesn't work; you still do it.
At least I'm meditating again and vibrating into my chakras and doing meditation and even though I'm slacking a bit on RTRs(FATSJD) I can at least state over the past nearly 7 years I've been deeply involved with this community.
I guess like my friend said it seems your own NS/SS don't value your opinion or your personal life and that they have the Sangri-La life and all NS/SS is perfect. Hell most of the people in this forum are talking out their ass.
I gotta agree with my friend at times cause he is a machine literally you can program time on him.
But anyways why so down and out on me? I love MerKaBa it's such an easy and wonderful meditation it takes about not even 2 minutes to complete and you spend 5-15 minutes meditating after programming.
Hell if your complaining to me about doing it. Why not go on a new age forum and explain to them why their MerKaBa actions doing it without being advanced.
Your treating me like I'm a retard who doesn't know what he is doing. I know full well what I'm doing and I like MerKaBa if it does something bad I'll back off.
Hell Maxine was and is the same way. She pushes the extreme and isn't afraid of instating a negative like she mentioned in her articles on the mainsite.
Why are you hassling me? I appreciate your concern hell if it weren't for my medication I'd be concerned but luckily I haven't had a relapse episode of mines requiring hospitalization.
Like I said I appreciate your concern your one of the few big members and forum members who handles my baggage and all the despondent shit I throw at the JoS cause I can't void, trance, nor single-pointed concentration thus doubting and limiting myself. Yes I know I don't meditate properly I can't I need a hypnotherapist to drop me down and start the journey to reprogram me and teach me trance, single-pointed and void through hypnotic suggestion. Hell I don't even like meditative states nor meditating cause everywhere I sit or lie down I either fall asleep, feel sleepy and wanting to lie down for hours on end or I'm completely uncomfortable and my entire body is a drag on my existence and I feel like I'm not supported nor anything. Maybe I need to start exercising, bodybuilding and ground/center myself plus improve my body so my body feels good sitting down and I'm not all stressed out rearranging and spending time moving around and feeling like shit cause the chairs feel like shit to sit down on plus my limbs all being heavy and it's just pure torture to relax and sit down. Lying down just makes me want to go to sleep. So I avoid that. I can't just sit and put myself in meditation due to the negatives of relaxing and negatives of sitting down. Hell even sitting on the floor with a wall behind me my entire back and lower back is just in pain and torture of holding my weight.
Anyways like I said I appreciate it but don't consider me stupid or idiotic for doing this. IF bad things happen I'll back off.