One of the main problems when reading books is not having an open mind or an open and broad conscience to be able to correctly interpret these types of philosophies. Socrates, Aristotle and other great philosophers were just that, great thinkers and in many cases their writings generate confusion because what they really want to say is hidden, hidden to those with a better understanding and awareness.
The Gods EXIST, they exist within you, but also within the world, the planet or galaxies. They are just as real as you and me, they are just more advanced in knowledge and all this. If you are doubting at this moment, this is often the work of the enemy, where he enters your mind as intrusive thoughts, doubts or confusion.
My advice to this is to apply the meditation to emptiness whenever there is this and sit for a while and look at some sigil of some God/sa or Father Satan. You will realize once again that they are as real as you and me.
In order to read these books and interpret them correctly, you need to keep meditating and expanding your soul and mind to this knowledge. But I will tell you something, sometimes you don't need to read, sometimes you need to meditate more and be more in frequency with the Gods.
Want more knowledge? Go to them
Want more understanding? Go to them
Want to advance further? Go to them
I am sure that the Gods have manifested themselves to you, I am very sure that they have also guided you and spoken to you. The very fact of existing in the Joy of Satan is a testimony of their existence.
You need more confidence in them, in you.
You must have faith, but here we are not talking about a false "faith" as in the Xian programs. Here faith is backed up with facts and I believe the Gods have already given you plenty of evidence of their existence.
It is not wrong that sometimes you doubt, that you feel confusion and even more if you are a beginner, my advice is that you better advance more, do not worry too much now about reading or things like that. If you want knowledge, open yourself first, create a better consciousness, eliminate ties with the enemy, control your mind and when you advance the Gods or Demons will approach you to teach and instruct you.
Believe me, I have lived it, we all go through moments of confusion, the difference is how to act in front of this.
Greetings brother or sister
a satanic hug :lol: