You will not find the answer to this here, not now or ever because we do not advocate for weakness as suicide is the coward's choice in life. Only in cases of an absolute cul-de-sac, dead-end, can it be seen as a somewhat viable option. Dead-end as in your freedom has been taken away and death is an absolute certainty. In such a case suicide can be the lesser of two evils as one might be able to avoid torture or other sort of painful death by a less painful death.
Think twice, and then again of this, as there truly are better options worth the work. Suicide creates trauma, compounding on other traumas leaving the person to work with even more the next life. We are here to guide people in life, for life. Not for death. That being said, we can help you if you let us help you.