Question #2886: Advice on Freeing Working For Intrusive Thoughts

[AskSatanOperator]

I try not to ask questions on here because I know how much this place gets flooded.

I am asking on this service because I am going to give some astrological info on myself.

I have been a dedicated Satanist for about half a year now and I am running into a problem. Intrusive thoughts continually flood my mind.
This is reflected in my chart because I have a neptune- mercury conjunction and a uranus mercury conjunction in aquarius of the third house.
Neptune has an aspect to my mars in sagittarius which conjuncts my AC. Mars is in the twelfth house.
On the bright side this placement makes me very creative and allows me to come up with many great ideas quickly. The downside is that the neptune aspects give me a tendency towards delusion, intrusive thoughts, and other negative effects.
For example, if I watch a documentary about Julius Ceasar my brain will flood thoughts of me being the next Ceasar for the next 2 weeks. I don't strive, want, or desire to be a butcher that kills innocent people, but my brain will be determined to flood my mind with the thoughts.
I have made progress with void meditation. Before I could not turn off my mind at all, now I can go for at max 20 seconds. My mind is also much less overactive and I have more self control now.
However, I am running into a wall with my progress. The energies of the planets will force powerful thoughts into my mind that I do not want or desire.

I read Blitzkrieg's post "Reflections on the air element and advancement". After reading the post had enough and tried for a one day working with ISA to remove any and all intrusive thoughts. It worked and calmed down my mind signifigantly. I am afraid of removing any thoughts that come to my mind though with the ISA rune because I read it can cause stupidity if used excessively. Part of the reason I was guided to Satanism is because of my creativity. My guardian demon when she spoke to me for the first time mentioned this is why I was brought to Satanism. This energy needs to be sublimated appropriately, so I can turn my creativity into good use for Satan.

Blitzkrieg mentioned the Ansuz rune for a freeing working in Reflections on the Air Element and Advancement. I am confused on how to go about this. What I need to do is turn my creative thoughts off and on as I please. I need to focus solely on RTRs when necessary, and I need to think creatively to come up with ways to spread Satanism for example.
Blitzkrieg mentioned redirecting energy in the soul. Can I redirect this energy from the intrusive thoughts? Like I could make an affirmation "Any and all energy creating my intrusive thoughts is funneled and sublimated under my will and only enters my mind when I please in a completely positive way for me".
I am new and I don't want to kill myself or permanently die/ turn myself into an invalid with a poorly worded working. Any advice would be appreciated.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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First, you need to have more faith that you will not ruin yourself with a working. Maybe you aren't confident with your mind, but this is different from confidence with magic; your affirmation is an expression of will and you are capable of performing such a working without harming yourself.

As you expressed you did not want to hurt yourself, this intention would also carry into the working. Therefore, there is no reason to fear anything going wrong with this.

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In regards to your thoughts, this is mainly the realm of the Mercury and the 3rd house. Mars in Sag is somewhat related, but not as closely as Mercury itself. Neptune conjuncting Mercury is the main culprit behind your thoughts blending themselves, whereas Uranus is more likely to create strongly distinctive thoughts. Both influence control of your mind, but in different ways.

You will note that Mercury itself is exalted in Aquarius, the sign ruled by Uranus, whereas it is in a position of detriment when in Pisces, the sign ruled by Neptune. Although this is somewhat different from having these planets conjuncting Mercury, it should also give you some insight into which energies make it harder for the traditional functioning of Mercury.

Aquarius is associated with genius and making mental connections between two concepts, hence the exaltation. Whilst Pisces is also very creative, you will notice it opposes Virgo on the Zodiac wheel, showing how it may have a hard time with details, calculations, and staying grounded. This is why it is traditionally viewed as detrimental, requiring more energy to harmonize with Mercury's traditional behaviors.

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As you noted a lack of control with your mind, it was wise to choose Isa as a means to balance this, as Isa is a strong yin-based energy and able to create structure and temperance. Ansuz is generally freeing, but if you have identified your problem as one in which more structure is needed, then you should use a more specific solution, such as Isa.

In regards to the use of Isa, you should use proper programming in your affirmation, such as saying "in a fully positive way for me". You also should not fear it, as any energy can be destructive when improperly used. For example, we use Thurisaz in many of the Gods' rituals, despite this being a highly destructive energy of Mars. We do so because we can safely control it with our mind.

However, if you are nervous, you can substitute with other energies, like that of Nauthiz and Berkano, as these energies together yield properties of control, grounding, and calmness, respectively. However, I have used a working of Isa and Berkano for my own mind, for 40 days, and did not suffer any negativity, which is why I would encourage you to do this, as well as ask your GD about this.

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I am not sure exactly what the context was for redirecting of the soul, but yes you can do this, however this is also what you were doing with the working itself. With this affirmation, you are exerting personal control in an effort to transform the existing behaviors/karma of your mind. This will take time and effort, as you are overcoming two conjunctions.

Yet, when you are using Isa to accomplish this same thing, you are directly modifying your soul's thought processes with a large amount of energy, rather than just your internal ability to exert control. Both methods represent an act of influence, but raising energy behind this would represent a much larger influence than pure will alone.

If you are new, maybe you would be more confident if you kept working on the basics of this path, including void meditation and cleaning. However, I don't think there are many true obstacles to your ability to do this working, besides perhaps lack of experience and some elements of fear. You should certainly consult your GD about this.

Perhaps a good time for such a working would be the Taurus esbat, as this relates to the slow and stable patterns of life. However, don't feel rushed about this, either.