AskSatanOperator
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I want to be loved, please everyone and be the best. I want to be the prettiest, the coolest, the most everything. I want everyone to look at me and choose me. This is embarrassing but it's mostly with men( but with women too), I'm doing everything and plan to do many things in my appearance to please them. I want them to like me. I've never been chosen or wanted in my life and I'm trying to change that, but it's killing me because there are things that are far from my genetics and only with a lot of pain to achieve. I am very nice and good to people, not to like me but because I was born that way. I'm losing myself and I don't know who I am anymore. Yesterday I was training and almost crying because frustration and a phrase came into my head "you will not be able to change if it is for others" and that stayed until I fell asleep.