I assume you've been using
Isa.
Care needs to be taken as the rune can also make the user dull and/or obsessive.
This may be why you've been left feeling empty.
The affirmation you use, matters. This will help,
Specificity with Workings and Affirmations -
Blitzkreig [JG]
"Sananda" is Sanskrit for "Joy" and "Happiness".
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Lydia [JG said:
"]Letter by letter:
SS-AH-NN-AH-NN-DD-AH
To vibrate D, hold the tip of your tongue to your teeth like you would when making the D sound, keep it there and vibrate it. A bit of practice makes it easy
The Color Gold rules "Happiness".
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Savitar said:
Moon
Shakti Mantra: SHRIM (prosperity, good luck, emotional healing, nurturing, receptivity, devotional attitude)
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Syt said:
SHRIM is a blissful mantra that wonderfully calms and soothes the mind.
Wunjo heals depression.
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Blitzkreig [JG said:
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Berkano is linked to the moon and calms and nurtures.
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Blitzkreig [JG said:
"]For example, you can use runes like Wunjo and Berkano together to create social and emotional comfort and happiness. The pain which you have inside is causing your behaviors, and this needs to heal for you to feel better.
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Lydia [JG said:
"]As for your horrible experiences, you can heal from them:
Wunjo rune, start today or tomorrow as the Moon is waning in Pisces.
Rune: Wunjo (or any other variations, Waunyo, Vend, Vin, Wynn). Its number is 8 so you can do 88 reps, 40 for people who aren't used to higher reps, or whatever amount you feel is best for you.
Vibrate it the same amount of repetitions every day for 40 days. You can continue for 80 or 90 days if you feel it is needed, or you can do another round of 40 days at a later time.
Affirmation 9x: "In a beneficial and healthy manner for me, the energies of [Wunjo or variation of] are totally and completely healing me from any and all psychological, mental, and emotional damage and pain".
Now, this is going to bring up some ugly stuff. For example, if you lived in fear as a child and always had stomach aches, this working might bring them back. You might also get flashes throughout the day of memories of trauma and so on. But it won't last long. Just keep it up and you will come out of it stronger (and saner) than ever.
You must perform Aura Cleaning and Aura of Protection once a day.
It will slowly, but certainly eradicate the extreme negativity that torments you.
What we experience in life never leaves us. It burrows itself deep within, surfacing at the worst of times.
Cleansing our soul frees us of the dross that continously pollutes the lives that we live, and binds us, preventing our escape.
It denies us our joys, our desires, our willingness to succeed. It takes away your hopes and dreams, crushing it underfoot.
It narrows our awareness, dampens our perception, drains the life from our veins, and damning us to making the same mistakes.
The ideas and suggestions that I present above, build upon this most necessary daily act of self-care.
The greatest obstacle you shall ever face is yourself. No battle harder fought. No war harder won.
In this, Power Meditation is a war against yourself. The untrained mind will do its utmost to see that you fail. Deny it!
Performing any working, whether it be to improve upon, add, or remove certain negative traits of ourselves, there is always a backlash. The severity of which depends upon what you're trying to achieve, and how much energy is directed into solving it.
Do not stop simply because one feels worse, that is temporary. It is not forever. Nor could it be, so long you stick with it.
The hopelessness that ensnares you, is NOTHING in comparison to the limitless potential that exists within you!
There is no need to mull it over. Focus upon, visualize and take aim at the filth wrapped around your Aura and Chakras, and DESTROY IT! Visuddhi will make short work of it. Watch as you incinerate it, how it fades to nothing. A weight off one's shoulders.
As only a brilliant light remains, there is hope yet. Of fire once lost, the flicker of embers takes its place.
A wound must first be cleaned, before it is allowed to heal. Cleaning is paramount. It will save your life.
Now, you mentioned praying to Father Satan for help, and that same night receiving a dream of a crow.
Also, that your Ascendant is in Aquarius. So, a thought came to mind.
Flauros aka Havres, Haures rules 15-19 Degrees of Aquarius, and is also known as
The Morrígan.
The Morrígan is mainly associated with war and fate, especially with foretelling doom, death, or victory in battle. In this role she often appears as a
crow, the
badb.
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magus.immortalis said:
The way the Morrigan first showed herself to me was in a crow form.
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magus.immortalis said:
Hi SSAmonra,
I wrote this post about the Morrigan in the old Joy of Satan forums.
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I was asked to write this post by Flauros, so here it is. ^.^
I wanted to share my experience and give publicity to this wonderful, powerful, loving Goddess. She is also known as The Morrigan.
I used the Foundation Meditation to inhale Her energy in from the sigil which I had drawn out, not really exhaling the breath fully afterwards but retaining it as much as possible.
Note: These are *my personal* experiences. What works and has happened to me may differ from what happens to you when you invoke the Gods, including how many breaths you need to take in of the particular God/dess' energy.
I don't have a lot to go by, as I have never read or heard of other's experiences of their invoking the Powers of Hell, other then what I read by Vovim Baghie and on the Joy of Satan website.
10 breaths in- I see Flauros sigil, which I have drawn out and framed, with a bright blood red background, with my third eye.
(The paper I have drawn it on is white, with black ink for the writing and the sigil itself.)
I can hear clashing of melee weapons on shields and vice versa. I am starting to get the shakes and feel nervous a bit. I never got the shakes before so I shake it off (pun intended) thinking it may be enemy spirits. But I decide to take another 10 breaths and see if it goes away or remains. If it remains, it's me and it's a reaction from her energy.
13 Breaths in- I feel HER. The warm, loving, powerful and kind energy that I recognize from the past few experiences with meeting Her.
Somewhere between 14-20 breaths, I felt the din of battle as if it were in my room. I heard the clashing of steel with steel; and steel with shield. It surrounded me in my bedroom. It was louder than before (at 10 breaths.) I did not realize it at the time but this was when Flauros was in my room, and had come to me in the guise of the Morrigan, a Goddess of War and Sovereignty, whom I am more familiar with than Her other faces.
I heard Her battle cry, it was with without words and crystal clear, like a clarion. She was urging and encouraging on Her favored warriors on the battle field. To hear Her voice and cry gave me strength inside, an indomitable and powerful strength within the soul and body.
The shakes subsided a bit, and I was more used to them after the 10th breath of breathing in Her energy.
I scribbled these before I felt Her leaving after my 20th breath. I asked a question of Her, and She answered and I was comforted by Her answer. I was strengthened, encouraged and felt more positive afterwards. I also felt elated and wide, wide awake.
When I finished writing I got up and realized She had blessed my room and me. I did not expect that but it was a lovely, thoughtful and pleasant surprise.
Thank you for reading. I hope you have learned more about this majestic, beautiful and loving Goddess.
Hail Flauros! All Hail the Morrigan!
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The Morrigan's Goetic name is Flauros.
I know the ridiculousness that is promoted that you speak of by the Coru Cathobodua Priesthood.
However, putting that aside, there is an excellent book by Morpheus Ravenna called "Book of the Great Queen." I have read it twice, and found it to be quite good. She leaves out 99% of the political leftist and interracial hogwash that is on her site and simply writes about the Morrigan. It's well-researched and informative, if you want to learn more about this goddess. Another good one is by Morgan Daimler, called "The Morrigan: Meeting the Great Queens" which is a small, information-packed book that is good as an introduction to her.
Morpheus Ravenna's website also has video classes that span from 2-3 hours on her. They are $25 USD each, they are information-heavy and I found them to be helpful in understanding Celtic culture, history, and the myths that the Morrigan features in.
I don't agree with Ravenna's political views and the "activist" work she does. I think it's a waste of her time, but that's just my opinion. But her writing is better than the fluffy Wiccan bullshit out there about the Morrigan.
Another priestess of the Morrigan is an Irish author named Lora O'Brien. I also don't suscribe to or like her political views (they are the same as Ravenna's) but she has a 6 month course that covers a lot of ground. I took it and got a lot out of it. It's 500 Euros though (if I recall correctly.) It's a lot, but if you are on a tight budget there are scholarship offers (where you don't have to pay) or you cay pay in installments (which is what I did.)
No, they did not ask me to promote these books or sites for them. I get nothing out of talking about these women and their work.
However, I do respect the work they have done in the Pagan community and the work they have done for the Morrigan.
I am just stating and listing what helped me in my relationship to the Morrigan. To understand the culture, history and myths that she came from is to understand her better.
I have found in my relationship to her is that what you ask her for, she will give wholly and fully. She will turn your life upside down if it suits her to chisel, carve and shape you into the person you need to be. Whether in general or to work with her, and carry out her will.
If she is sending you signs and you wish to answer her Call, know that she sees something in you that you may or may not see in yourself, and perhaps she wishes to work with you. I have found being extremely respectful, honest, and keeping your word and promises/contracts/oaths to her is very, very important. She will keep her end of the contract as well, as long as your keep up yours.
I hope this helped a bit.
All hail the Morrigan!
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magus.immortalis said:
I have worked with the Morrigan in the past for 10 years and she is very kind, patient and helpful. She will sit down and talk with you about your problems and offer different solutions. She is a wonderful listener, and very strong. She is a daughter of Lilith. The description of her appearance in the JoS Demons list is accurate, although she has appeared in my dreams and visions as a crow with red-tinted eyes.
She is Flauros/Haures in the Demons list on Joy of Satan website.
If you search some old posts about the Morrigan in these forums, I would like to add I made some posts, but at the time I was under heavy spiritual attack. I would like to correct some things I wrote back then, in this post.
Satan, The Morrigan and the Powers of Hell that I have interacted with, are all trustworthy, and will help you, when you ask and before you ask.
See also,
Satanic Symbols
The Black Sun, the Raven, the Crow, and the color black also in regards to the star in reverse: symbolize the Nigredo [transformation] stage. The Black Sun is the astral Sun.