Question #1227: ok so I will tell you why

[AskSatanOperator]

same guy from question 915

the reason why I choose to use porn is because I'm literally subhuman, I dont know what happened to my genes but even though I'm subhuman my family has been so kind to me

I'm so ugly that i should NOT reproduce at all and having a girlfriend would be a sin for me because a woman can give birth to a child and I dont have enough for an abortion and I dont know how to get away with killing a subhuman baby so I will not do somthing as evil as create another subhuman

there are enough ugly bastards in this world and i WILL NOT make another.

I wish to the gods that i become at least a human looking creature

I want to use my imagination as porn but i have aphantasia and I can somehow imagine stuff at the same time but I dont trust my weak imagination so I use images but what kind of images should i use?

and should I use sex magic to deatach from jewish porn?

there are people that turn me on irl but remember what i said

 

[Egon]

Refer to my reply here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=437736#p437736
Your mind seems to be in a lot of chaos, some problems which you might consider to be true like your supposed "subhumanity" now may be not later after you have taken the proper healing and cleaning measures. Do a lot of cleaning and get yourself together before taking extreme measures like not having kids at all and that sort of thing, there are ways around with a lot of your problems that may not need to include you giving up on romantic/sexual relationship with an actual person.

Deep Cleaning: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=57615

The Ritual for Valefor has to do with healing energies: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=77132

The Ritual for Abrasax may help with getting your thoughts together: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=76092

 

[Antares Warrior]

Do rtrs more and cleanse. Maybe do solar working for confidence of a working on your self esteem. Try to do Venus square to attract a woman or improve appearance. You are not as bad as you think if you are here on the site.

So become confident and make your dreams more real.

Healing working for trauma or other stuff may also be needed with wunjo and sowilo and maybe nauthiz.