Lydia's advice is spot on. The majority of these hot girls are so incredibly empty inside. Such wasted beauty and talent. It's mind boggling what both men and women are becoming.
By the way, the girls you see on the internet have a lot of make up and filters and they are probably as ugly as you. But I'm sure you're not even *that* ugly.
Take care of yourself and improve your style and hygiene (spiritual and physical), and keep investing in yourself. Become an attractive, confident and interesting woman. You don't have to be pretty to succeed. But if you do this, you will improve your beauty even if you are indeed ugly, which you probably aren't. Be more compassionate and patient with yourself.
The habits and patterns that got you to where you are today, took years to develop. And these mental limitations will not be lifted over night, it will take some time. Stay consistent in your efforts and always be kind to yourself. Remove from your mind any negative thoughts towards yourself. Even if this doesn't make any sense to do, even if this may seem to challenge reality. Do it. Remove them and replace them with positive and empowering thoughts.
I'm currently reading 'The Psychology of Selling' by Brian Tracy and he recommends a simple technique to boost self-confidence: repeating the phrase "I like me" in your mind over and over again. Although this technique is to be used in the context of sales, it can be applied to all areas of life. By changing the way you perceive yourself, you can improve your self-confidence and achieve success in many areas. I'm sure as a Satanist you can come up with a better affirmation, but you get the idea. It works.
If something is wrong with your face, like your teeth, your nose, or whatever that can be fixed, challenge yourself to do it. If it's something that you truly have no control over, then don't stress over it and try to do what you can to improve your overall beauty.
Negative emotions can cause tension in the facial muscles, affecting your appearance. However, with a positive outlook and by taking steps to improve your physical appearance, you can enhance your beauty in ways you never thought possible. Believe in yourself, focus on positivity, and you'll radiate with inner and outer beauty.