Progress update for my recovery

[Jrvan]

Blitzkreig recommended to me a while back to make a progress post for my sacral chakra recovery, so that it might be helpful to others in the future who may have faced a similar thing. I think the idea was to note down what I've tried, what has worked, and what hasn't worked. So I'm doing this now.

Okay. The first things I tried early on were the sacral chakra Yoga poses that Lydia shared. Specifically I included Eagle Asana and Swastikasana in my routine for that time period.

Eventually after that, I tried vibrating VAUM into my sacral chakra each day for a while (this was well after doing the soul opening exercises on the JoS website). At one point I decided to try going extreme by vibrating VAUM 100x each day into my sacral chakra, sometimes twice a day. I did that for around a month if I remember right, and it had great and powerful results. The results were temporary though. I also didn't program the energy as I should have. Ignorance at the time.

I tried empowerment with the Sol Rune. It didn't have the effect I was hoping for. I didn't really notice much with that.

Then I tried a 40 day healing working on the sacral chakra with the Wunjo Rune. This was helpful, although not as much as I was hoping for. I also have tried various methods of removing blockages.

Since then I have mostly just been cleaning it as often as I can with Visuddi. This has been among the most helpful things. I believe one of the primary problems is soul pollution, but that's only part of it. Interestingly, cleaning the root chakra and the Anahata chakra each affected and improved my sexual function as well, at least initially.

For those who aren't aware, my sacral chakra area was ripped from by a fake healer. This was long before I knew what the chakras were, and years before I found the JoS. I was spiritually ignorant. This left me impotent in many ways spiritually and physically. My physical body has been affected, and I haven't had normal sexual function for years now. I'd rather not go into details with how exactly it affected my sexual organs.

Tabby recently was able to see that there was a hole in my astral body. Her attempts to heal this have brought more stability to my body, and the recovery process seems to be going faster now. It's sort of a back and forth now lately with my sexual function. I have good days where my member springs to life a bit, and then the next day it's often unresponsive and I can't move the muscles down there. But there's actual progress happening. It seems whatever damage was done to my astral body was a missing part of the puzzle.

One other thing I've done recently, which I should have done way sooner, was directing the FRTR at the ones who did this to me. This is having a tremendous effect. I experienced and managed to channel potent rage unlike anything I have accessed for years. I haven't had that level of genuine emotion expression for a long time. Before now, my emotional expression felt hollow like there was no... energetic weight to it, I guess? It's hard to describe. Now it suddenly felt real. It's so weird trying to express emotions and knowing that you feel that way, but having it feel unreal like you're faking it. I just can't explain it.

That's all I can think to write for now at this hour. I hope maybe this will be helpful somehow and serve the intended purpose. I can post more updates to this thread in the comments as I learn and discover more through my recovery.

 

[AshStarIshtar_88]

You did very well into repairing your problems and you shall continue to do this.

One certain thing is that directing the FRTR at those who enraged you helped a lot in magically and spiritually teaching them a lesson.

You shall continuing meditating on your sacral chakra and continue with the Swastiskasana and the Eagle Asana as they will help you recover your sacral chakra and restore it to optimal values.

Vibrating Vaum is also indicated to be continued.

I am sorry to hear that you had to encounter such a vile person that was pretending to heal you but in the end it put a lot of Jewish work in the process instead, and hurt you.

Thank you for posting this topic and, though I do not have problems with my chakra and I empowered it quite well, in my opinion, this topic will surely solve its purpose of being a guide to other's problems and how those can be solved.

Hail Satan

 

[Korpi]

I didn't know you were dealing with this. That is awful.
May your recovery be swift, and proceed smoothly.

I wonder if Uruz, or its more powerful form Auruz would assist in this endeavour.
It is one of the two runes used in the Freeing the Soul meditations, Uruz and Ansuz.
Talked about here, Using Words of Power - Freeing the Soul
Uruz deals with sexual potency. Just a thought.
More information on Uruz, Uruz – Rune Meaning

 

[RockSeed13]

I hope you could fully recover.

 

[SSinHeartandSoul]

Man that sounds rough, you have done a great deal to try and correct these problems so props to you brother.

I have had problems with my sexual organ for years as well, a lot has happened and now he is in great shape. One thing that i have recently been doing (which is great in my opinion), and might be of help to you is, to provoke a good feeling while masturbating, provoking good feelings can be a great helping factor in any meditation or working but in this case it is a must! So provoke a good feeling, do not use your imagination, just focus on the feeling that is building up inside of you (And inside of your organ). If you don't feel anything you can try to use some stimulation beforehand, it can also be a big help to do this in a place where you feel more comfortable like the living room if this is possible, do away with any fears you might have. It goes without saying that you should masturbate till completion.

Masturbating while only focusing on the feeling can be very liberating and reprogram your mind and energy in a positive way. Note that the process from start to finish should be pleasurable, if it is not stop and try again another day. I would also recommend to not masturbate every day, only when you get horny or when you get the urge to do it.

Another thing i have been doing recently is using sexual energy in workings, this blew me away when i did it properly, this was literally the most pleasurable thing i have ever done! It is very important to make the process feel good, so try what i said above first. If you want to use this energy in workings masturbate till completion, when ejaculating (Or shortly afterwards) start the working, direct this energy into the working, you will notice that the further you get the more pleasurable the working gets. I believe that this can be huge for your healing process!

 

[HPS Lydia]

Good to hear you are recovering

I agree with Korpi, I think Uruz should be the next route to try. And when you do it, on your inhale, breathe in bright orange energy into your sacral chakra.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Wunjo is healing based upon its ability to create harmony, but I feel like this applies better to emotional aspects, and less so in this case. Uruz is the energy which propagates patterns, including the pattern of our soul/body, therefore it directly relates to healing. Thurisaz is the energy most strongly related to Mars and sexuality.

Instead of focusing just on the sacral chakra, use either Thurisaz/Uruz or both, and direct them to heal all the trauma pertaining to these events.

 

[Aquarius]

My blessings to your full recovery. Even I have to deal with the aftermath of 15 years of porn usage, but it's getting better every day

 

[sublimesatanist]

Thank you for sharing your experiences. You are so brave in making this post opposed to placing it in the new anonymous questions board. It will undoubtedly be of help and inspiration to many, myself included.

The fact that meditation can do so much for us is very reassuring because in my experience when dealing with health problems it's easy to let it become a sole focus along with seeking dietary/lifestyle changes, and thus meditation becomes an afterthought. I've battled a thought process that I first need to get better physically so that I can then meditate the most effectively. However, this logic proves ineffective and we can in fact still have great meditation sessions, even with uncomfortable health problems.

Your amazing progress here is nothing to sneeze at. Keep up the amazing work and thanks again for the inspiration!

 

[Jrvan]

I wasn't initially planning to reply, but I'm so touched by the positive responses that I would feel bad if I ignored it. Thank you all so much for the kind words of support and very helpful advice. This community is wonderful.

I will try the idea for the Uruz Rune working in the coming months when my schedule for spellwork is more open. I will also try another recommendation about filling the organ with positive energy, as that might help along with removing the negative energy which I have been doing. And I'll definitely keep directing the FRTR at the monsters who did this to me because the effect which that had is too big to be ignored. It had a very clear impact and effect on my soul. It's not that I hadn't tried fighting back, and I had even tried cursing them before, but this was something else on another level.

 

[Shadowcat]

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Good to hear you are recovering

I agree with Korpi, I think Uruz should be the next route to try. And when you do it, on your inhale, breathe in bright orange energy into your sacral chakra.

I'm actually using uruz for freeing my Solar chakra from Saturn and Neptune issues and a lot of dirt has been coming out that i'm having to clean. The dross that comes out manifests as massive insecurity and inferiority complexes, that have everything to do with these planets and their aspects. Usually this subsides after the early stages when i start such workings then the positives start building, allowing for channeling the positive aspects to come out more. A strong clean solar chakra is also needed for wealth workings so this one is a must for me, also for the will and self image.

 

[Korpi]

Direct the FRTR into the Sacral Chakra, during the Hour of Mars.
It is worth a try.