Problems with the way I look (Warning: long thread)

[the_eye_of_anubis]

Greetings everyone,

This post is more of a vent. This full moon in Cancer has really affected me, damn...

As the title suggests, I've always struggled with my self-image. I've never considered myself beautiful, and this has caused numerous issues throughout my life. It's not just how I see myself, but I've also been teased and bullied for my appearance. Growing up watching movies and Disney cartoons didn't help either, as all the main characters were always beautiful with perfect features and slim bodies. This made me believe that if you don't have certain aesthetic qualities, you're undeserving of anything.

Now, even though I've grown up, worked on my body with exercise/yoga, makeup, and skincare, and have had a significant glow-up, I still can't see myself as beautiful. Sometimes, when I look around and see other beautiful girls, I feel really bad and even cry (which happened yesterday). I often wonder, "What's wrong with me? Why can't I be beautiful like them?"

I admit this also affects me sexually; I'm ashamed to do certain things and take my clothes off because I view myself as ugly.

In November, I started HPS Lydia's emotional body healing, and it's really helping me. It even gave me some relief with this issue, but due to the recent full moon in Cancer, I had a bad relapse and ended up crying a lot because I don't feel as beautiful as the girls around me.

I'm really angry at myself for writing this post. I know I shouldn't see myself this way, and that the beauty of the soul is far more important than physical appearance, but I just can't accept myself.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder how anyone could love me.

If you have any advice on how to work through this, I would be truly grateful. I was thinking about doing a Venus square to boost my beauty and self-esteem—what do you think?

Thank you all and Hail Satan❤

 

[Persephone]

I believe that loving yourself is one of the hardest and most complicated jobs a person has to face.

Today's society, with social media and fashion trends, has focused attention on a specific type of body type, aesthetic beauty and everything related to body care.

We need to go back to understanding that each person, genetically speaking, is different and each beautiful in their own way. I know it sounds a bit like a classic phrase used by everyone, but it's really like that.

If you saw 3 beautiful girls in front of you: a brunette with blue eyes, a redhead with brown eyes and a blonde with green eyes, for you they would all be gorgeous and better than you, surely they think the same thing among themselves.

You don't have to respect any standard, much less compare yourself.

Surely the healing of the emotional body is bringing some really deep insecurities to the surface.

As advice I would tell you not to look at other people, you more than them have Father Satan, the Gods and a soul in progress. The more you advance the more the beauty of the soul will also be reflected in aesthetic beauty.

You could try some work with runes for self-esteem and also a square (like Venus or the Sun).

I hope I have helped you a little and don't worry, little by little everything will settle down, metabolize and eliminate this insecurity of yours and you will see that it will always get better.

HAIL SATAN

 

[ᥫ᭡. Echos ৻ꪆ]

Greetings everyone,

This post is more of a vent. This full moon in Cancer has really affected me, damn...

As the title suggests, I've always struggled with my self-image. I've never considered myself beautiful, and this has caused numerous issues throughout my life. It's not just how I see myself, but I've also been teased and bullied for my appearance. Growing up watching movies and Disney cartoons didn't help either, as all the main characters were always beautiful with perfect features and slim bodies. This made me believe that if you don't have certain aesthetic qualities, you're undeserving of anything.

Now, even though I've grown up, worked on my body with exercise/yoga, makeup, and skincare, and have had a significant glow-up, I still can't see myself as beautiful. Sometimes, when I look around and see other beautiful girls, I feel really bad and even cry (which happened yesterday). I often wonder, "What's wrong with me? Why can't I be beautiful like them?"

I admit this also affects me sexually; I'm ashamed to do certain things and take my clothes off because I view myself as ugly.

In November, I started HPS Lydia's emotional body healing, and it's really helping me. It even gave me some relief with this issue, but due to the recent full moon in Cancer, I had a bad relapse and ended up crying a lot because I don't feel as beautiful as the girls around me.

I'm really angry at myself for writing this post. I know I shouldn't see myself this way, and that the beauty of the soul is far more important than physical appearance, but I just can't accept myself.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder how anyone could love me.

If you have any advice on how to work through this, I would be truly grateful. I was thinking about doing a Venus square to boost my beauty and self-esteem—what do you think?

Thank you all and Hail Satan❤

I understand it because I often feel like it too.

But just because some people won the genetics lottery doesn't mean it makes you less.

Look at women in the past as an example and role model. A lot of women would call Eva Braun ugly these days. Or other very respectful women that did so many great things.

Why? Because these days everyone is expected to share the same face.

Humans have diversity. Most of us, SS or not, are average in looks.

It doesn't make you any less worthy of love. There are a lot of people much less attractive than you that still find good relationships and love.

Why should you not?

Do some workings to highlight your beauty, use subtle makeup to accentuate your good traits, and work on your charm and sexuality. A lot of people are highly attractive not because they have perfect faces or bodies, but because of their charisma, energy, and aura.

And stop comparing yourself to others. There is always someone prettier.

You're an SS. You're human too. You're improving, you're working to advance our cause, you're advancing spiritually. You will reach perfection one day but you need to learn how to accept yourself at the moment. How you view yourself will affect how others perceive you too.

There are so many women that are downright obese and ugly yet have immense amounts of confidence.

Why should you not have it too? Learn to accept that there will always be someone more attractive and that this is perfectly fine. It doesn't take away from your worth or your own charm.

 

[ᥫ᭡. Echos ৻ꪆ]

Perhaps you should also try to connect and seek guidance from some of our Goddesses. They will understand your struggle.

 

[the_eye_of_anubis]

Thank you both for your kind words <3 As I said in the thread, I know that physical beauty is not as important as inner beauty, the fact is that there are some things about myself that I really struggle to accept (crow's feet, bulbous nose, my faceshape). I am about to become a mua so I know how to highlight the best traits of my face but because of the flaws that I mentioned before it's so hard for me to see myself as beautiful even with make up on. I feel like I'm fake... I was actually thinking about getting surgery when I have enough money.

You're an SS. You're human too. You're improving, you're working to advance our cause, you're advancing spiritually

With the healing of the emotional body I was actually gettin better but in these days I'm having a kinda strong relapse. When I saw that the full moon is in Cancer I understood why lol

Perhaps you should also try to connect and seek guidance from some of our Goddesses. They will understand your struggle.

should I seek Astarte's guidance? or maybe Lilith?

 

[SomewhatCoherent]

Now, even though I've grown up, worked on my body with exercise/yoga, makeup, and skincare, and have had a significant glow-up, I still can't see myself as beautiful. Sometimes, when I look around and see other beautiful girls, I feel really bad and even cry (which happened yesterday). I often wonder, "What's wrong with me? Why can't I be beautiful like them?"

I have no idea who you are or what you look like. A lot of times the "hot girls" are really not that great and fairly average, its just social media pushes unhealthy standards + filters. The girls that get hit on a lot are usually average its just guys think they will put out or they are easy to approach. I've seen every type of women ranging from a 0 to a 10 get someone. I know its a meme, the crazy hot scale is what most guys look at. Most guys just want someone who is not crazy who won't cheat. Women who are healthy and have healthy habits are more attractive than a heavy make up wearing crazy chick.

The other thing to keep in mind is its become way more risky for men to approach women in the west. Sometime a guys like a girl, they can't afford to take the risk on someone who seems uninterested and if you are putting out that negative low self esteem energy its safer to avoid. The other problem women sometimes think they are flirting, they do 1 thing one time and as a guy you don't know if they are being silly or actually interested. Or one day a girl seems interested in you and the next day they go stoic. A lot times the environment is just bad for trying to talk to someone. For example if you are cashier and try flirting with a customer they might notice, its just a bad setting to talk to someone especially when they are being paid to be nice to you. Point being you may not be as ugly as you think, it just hard for everyone who is not interested hook up culture to find someone.

 

[the_eye_of_anubis]

I have no idea who you are or what you look like. A lot of times the "hot girls" are really not that great and fairly average, its just social media pushes unhealthy standards + filters. The girls that get hit on a lot are usually average its just guys think they will put out or they are easy to approach. I've seen every type of women ranging from a 0 to a 10 get someone. I know its a meme, the crazy hot scale is what most guys look at. Most guys just want someone who is not crazy who won't cheat. Women who are healthy and have healthy habits are more attractive than a heavy make up wearing crazy chick.

The other thing to keep in mind is its become way more risky for men to approach women in the west. Sometime a guys like a girl, they can't afford to take the risk on someone who seems uninterested and if you are putting out that negative low self esteem energy its safer to avoid. The other problem women sometimes think they are flirting, they do 1 thing one time and as a guy you don't know if they are being silly or actually interested. Or one day a girl seems interested in you and the next day they go stoic. A lot times the environment is just bad for trying to talk to someone. For example if you are cashier and try flirting with a customer they might notice, its just a bad setting to talk to someone especially when they are being paid to be nice to you. Point being you may not be as ugly as you think, it just hard for everyone who is not interested hook up culture to find someone.

I got what you mean but my aim is not to be hot for men's approval only, I wanna look good for myself first of all I'm so sorry to state this but most of the men I see around are spiritually and mentally degenerate, I see this especially in comments under pictures of girls on social media. I read things that make me cringe. It's really sad to admit because I know there are wonderful men out there, it's just become very hard to find them.

 

[ᥫ᭡. Echos ৻ꪆ]

Thank you both for your kind words <3 As I said in the thread, I know that physical beauty is not as important as inner beauty, the fact is that there are some things about myself that I really struggle to accept (crow's feet, bulbous nose, my faceshape). I am about to become a mua so I know how to highlight the best traits of my face but because of the flaws that I mentioned before it's so hard for me to see myself as beautiful even with make up on. I feel like I'm fake... I was actually thinking about getting surgery when I have enough money.


With the healing of the emotional body I was actually gettin better but in these days I'm having a kinda strong relapse. When I saw that the full moon is in Cancer I understood why lol

should I seek Astarte's guidance? or maybe Lilith?

I too dislike my nose and my face shape, but such is life.

Don't seek out surgery. If you feel fake just wearing some makeup to highlight your best traits, you'll feel worse for getting cosmetic surgery.

It's your decision, of course, but it's heavily discourage to seek out surgery or enhancements that aren't necessary.

You can try seeking help from Lady Astarte, of course.

But you also need to change your mindset. Until we evolve or are very advanced, there is no way to really deal with physical modifications. You were born in this body, do what you can with it.

Unless you're overweight or straight up obese or have face deformities, you're most likely just average.

Tough pill to swallow for some, but I too look average and most other people do.

Don't let it pull you down or make you get into a victim mindset.

 

[Hellknight]

I believe that loving yourself is one of the hardest and most complicated jobs a person has to face.

Today's society, with social media and fashion trends, has focused attention on a specific type of body type, aesthetic beauty and everything related to body care.

We need to go back to understanding that each person, genetically speaking, is different and each beautiful in their own way. I know it sounds a bit like a classic phrase used by everyone, but it's really like that.

If you saw 3 beautiful girls in front of you: a brunette with blue eyes, a redhead with brown eyes and a blonde with green eyes, for you they would all be gorgeous and better than you, surely they think the same thing among themselves.

You don't have to respect any standard, much less compare yourself.

Surely the healing of the emotional body is bringing some really deep insecurities to the surface.

As advice I would tell you not to look at other people, you more than them have Father Satan, the Gods and a soul in progress. The more you advance the more the beauty of the soul will also be reflected in aesthetic beauty.

You could try some work with runes for self-esteem and also a square (like Venus or the Sun).

I hope I have helped you a little and don't worry, little by little everything will settle down, metabolize and eliminate this insecurity of yours and you will see that it will always get better.

HAIL SATAN

You are beautiful and loved here irregardless of your looks work on your third eye then you have the opportunity to summon the gods and receive guidance on shape-shifting and transform for good.. Alot of non satanists would put scissors and knives in their bodies but for you it's magick I wish I could meet a girl who even with no beauty exalts Satan all of the ones I come across and kick it off are so deluded and it's my greatest turn off I never get serious with relationships ever I even thought of getting a demoness coz clearly most of the ladies are just lazy and ignorant and clingy to their baseless beliefs but fortunately you are a gem you are greater than even those kardashians or supermodels you are an empress a mighty queen

 

[SomewhatCoherent]

I got what you mean but my aim is not to be hot for men's approval only, I wanna look good for myself first of all I'm so sorry to state this but most of the men I see around are spiritually and mentally degenerate, I see this especially in comments under pictures of girls on social media. I read things that make me cringe. It's really sad to admit because I know there are wonderful men out there, it's just become very hard to find them.

Fair enough, it goes both ways. Its hard to find a good quality women who is not degenerate. Every aspect of society these days is designed to tear people down and promote degeneracy.

If a video has 10,000 comments and 10 million views that is only 1%. Some of the comments will be the same people. At least half those comments are bots or farms of people paid to boost the views. When Elon bought X he purged a lot of bot accounts and many of the big names lost half their subscribers. How many generic comments on youtube under the big channels? Its good that you want to look better for yourself, just don't use social media as a standard. A lot of the best girls are pretty average they just have good energy about them and are genuinely nice people. There are also talent agencies that mass produce influencers and pay to promote them in the rankings on all social media platforms. A lot of what you see if fake and designed to manipulate you into hating yourself.